I think I've found 'us'!!

Big Thanks to the Moderator who sent us private message suggesting this account name, we'd have never of found it because the original creator isn't me but something one of their system typed fits me and Juno absolutely!

There's about 86 pages of posts so haven't read them all but tried searching them via key words that we thought described our relationship in particular and found this

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" S + M are able to blend easily and do frequently and seem to both get happiness from it. They do also enjoy been able to live on the inside though as mother and daughter again in a house that Kit recreated for them thats a perfect replica of the home as it was in the 70's with dog and other family members played by other changelings (like an endless role play session).

We discovered M can age slide too after finding an old school report and black and white photo of her at 15 yrs old (the age they left school back then in the 50's). S enjoyed finding a pic of themselves at same age, similar hair, made it black and white, put it side by side and they could be twins! ..of course as Mother and daughter they will bear a resemblance at the same age, though S seems to believe this means they should function as twins so they do sometimes. She believes it gives M chance to see the family home again and her son if she is blended with her when she goes to visit. M tends to go 'in mother role' when visiting the home she lived at as their mother but stays in the background helping S with 'conversation', although she moves forward when brother comes to hug us so she can feel a hug from her son too.

They like it in bed when we are first waking up or drifting off that sleepy state when the mind is more flexible they can each take control of one arm/hand and clasp hands as the body lies there so they can feel physical contact from each other. (not in a sexual manner just as a mother would hold their child's hand or twin sisters may)

They can do that at any time now they know how to achieve full blending but at first they could only achieve it in that state when the brain was moving between been awake and being asleep.

Sometimes they will rub one foot on the others leg and they like to visit each other on their Animal Crossing Islands and have mastered making the characters run and swim together with one using the joycon on the switch lite and the other on the controller for old switch (docked to TV so they can see it on the big screen and be immersed in their fantasy).

These are the only two alters that have this kind of 'loving' but platonic relationship (only ever twin sisters or mother and daughter roles) although CA 'Susie' can also blend with them to have the same 'closeness to mummy' but she tends to 'twin' with Phoenix, to play as 2 little girls the same age".


I think me and Juno are 'S and M' ... I'm not sure what CA means but the fact it mentions 2 little girls I'm guessing that Susie or Phoenix are the child appearing in our dream recently? ...oddly the name Phoenix has kept cropping out recently too! ...and it's not particularly a popular name here.

I noticed the signature mentioned a Kit as host and although this name has cropped up for me a few times lately too I don't think 'I' am Kit. I believe the one you knew as Kit was the host I saw being 'shut down' from the medical trauma and the one that was returned 'inside' to recover.

But this S + M definitely feels so much like me and Juno, we've been doing so many of these things right from the beginning of my time out. (though only recently found one switch console here....will have to look for the other one mentioned and visit those islands again!)

I don't know how to prove it for sure without knowing what email account was used to start Kit's account??


edit: I am getting the thought..'I bet we had an apple mail account' which seems to be a service that collects mail from several accounts?? (I'm being told) ..if we can find the password for that one ....send a PM to 'Kit' (on here from this account) then even if they don't reply...cos they can't 'get out' the notification email from this board should arrive at one of the email accounts?


Why did we never come up with this before!!!! ...ok .... off to see if can recover an apple mail account, hopefully it requires some real name details I can prove to get us in!

Yuna


p.s do I still stay as Yuna?? and me and Juno keep our own account?? (we both kinda like these 'new names) or should we just go back to being S+M if we can prove that was definitely us????

It really is awesome if you found your old account! You'll recover so much information this way.

You keep the account and names you are more comfortable with now, in my opinion. Though for the accounts it is something that the moderators will have a say in too, I guess.

Fingers crossed it is the right account that you found, and you will be able to patch up informations on yourself/ves!
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Zamiel@Morwan.

Keep yuna.x
Have the other account for when the others wake and read it to get more info.

You chose Yuna for a reason.

Eliseahorse wrote:Keep yuna.x
Have the other account for when the others wake and read it to get more info.

You chose Yuna for a reason.

That's a good idea. I never knew why this image of the character from an old game was in my head, but after last nights dream it kind of makes sense.


I was trying to send the littles an image of a broken bridge. I found one in a game I found where you have a farm and it has a couple of broken bridges to repair. The game has been started previously.... the character looks like a little girl with bunches/pigtails and wears dungaree shorts and a stripey top. The character had been named 'Susie' The last save file was a few days before the day of the stroke!

So anyway I took a clip of the second bridge that is still broken in the game and then the first one (which had already been repaired in game). I kept playing this clip to myself throughout the evening usually in ad breaks from tv programs.

This morning I awoke remembering a scene from somewhere that looked similar to the area of the second bridge but not exact. IN game there's a mining cave directly opposite the broken bridge blocked by huge boulders we don't yet have the correct hammer to break them with...in the dream 2 little girls holding hands and stood waving.The gap is much larger than the in-game stream and they are further away!


There's a bag at the side of them that looks like one of those big builder bags that they keep dry sand and cement in? They stop holding hands and one of the little girls starts to morph into a bird shape, the other is trying to hold up the handles of the bag for the bird to grip the handles with its feet..the bird gets bigger and more powerful until its strong enough to lift this bag and fly across the chasm with it and drop it on my side.


I feel myself exclaiming 'valefor!' (its the name of a mythical creature the character Yuna can summon in Final Fantasy 10)

then 'wait!\.... cos I look in the bag and it appears to be empty!

I wake up confused as to why the bird had to be so big to carry an empty bag across to me and still trying to figure what it could mean! ..but I also instantly know that its who Kit called 'Phoenix' on here...what I (as Yuna) remember as a 'childhood imaginery friend'

So am I just remembering a memory of me as a child with my 'imaginery friend' or is there a little girl alter still stuck in the 'other world' and trying to send me messages'?


Where are the other human adult alters that Kit mentions? (If we are part of Kit's system) Where is Kit? ...Why can I only communicate with the children and the non-human spirit entities???

Yuna

ArbreMonde wrote:It really is awesome if you found your old account! You'll recover so much information this way.

You keep the account and names you are more comfortable with now, in my opinion. Though for the accounts it is something that the moderators will have a say in too, I guess.

Fingers crossed it is the right account that you found, and you will be able to patch up informations on yourself/ves!
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Zamiel@Morwan.

I'm still having difficulty finding/accessing all past email accounts but the more I read of Kit's post the stronger the feeling is getting that 'this is us'...there can't be that many people who had a Phoenix as a childhood friend that is still with them in adulthood!!! ..and with a very similar medical background!

But if 'Juno' is Phoenix, who I read gave up the ability to transform to remain in human form, who is the bird mentioned in the dream? (post above). Am I just remembering us as kids? ... or is there a seperate child stuck inside who believes she's still a child?

Where is Kit? ...and the other adult human based alters that Kit mentions in her post? ...could all past 'adult versions of me' have all being blended/fused by the stroke? ...so many questions!!!! ...but for now it seems we have communication with one child via dreams and images.


Yuna

Easy does it. System alters can recombine after major life events, meaning that some aspects of different alters can split and recombine in new alters.

As an example: you can start with alter 1 (containing A B C D), alter 2 (E F) and alter 3 (G)
Major life event occurs.
You end up with alter 4 (A F G), alter 5 (D E) and alter 6 (C B).

Everybody is still here and accounted for, but "recombined". They might end up using different names, different faces... But everybody is still here.

It takes getting used to the new faces and names. Old faces and names can be missed. But everybody is still here. And if the life gets stable again, they can recombine back into the alters 1 2 and 3 if that's what the system needs. Or stay as 4 5 6. Or evolve and recombine yet again, if it is what the system needs. The system will always only take the shape it needs to be.
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Morwan.

ArbreMonde wrote:Easy does it. System alters can recombine after major life events, meaning that some aspects of different alters can split and recombine in new alters.

As an example: you can start with alter 1 (containing A B C D), alter 2 (E F) and alter 3 (G)
Major life event occurs.
You end up with alter 4 (A F G), alter 5 (D E) and alter 6 (C B).

Everybody is still here and accounted for, but "recombined". They might end up using different names, different faces... But everybody is still here.

It takes getting used to the new faces and names. Old faces and names can be missed. But everybody is still here. And if the life gets stable again, they can recombine back into the alters 1 2 and 3 if that's what the system needs. Or stay as 4 5 6. Or evolve and recombine yet again, if it is what the system needs. The system will always only take the shape it needs to be.


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Morwan.

Interesting! I seem to be the only 'human' present. I believe who I called 'Juno', is who was referred to as M previously and was the 'original Phoenix' who took my mothers human form (after her RL death) so she could always be with me and watch over me as she had promised. It makes sense that in a medical emergency a system would believe that was the most important bond to preserve and certainly in my case.

I believe the 'protector/guardian' and 'spirit guide' who were present until Juno was able to get to the front may also be 'changelings'.

Been reading Kit's posts most of yesterday mainly trying to find the ones where 'our system' is described in more depth. It does mention that names were specifically created for this board which probably means they aren't people's real names inside! It also mentioned there were others that didn't want to come out to post so god only knows how many are 'lost' somewhere in an inner world I can't see or imagine! (just yet)


Juno says it maybe possible the changelings did not have had time to get to everyone (at the moment the brain took the stroke) the youngest would probably have been the priority to protect and would have been taken deep into the homeworld (if they had time to get them that far). ..so is it possible some that previously came out simply can't remember that they used to? ..so they aren't being triggered because they don't remember their RL identity on here?

Yuna

I guess it is a possibility. It is also possible that the stroke damaged the brain areas where the "memories of coming here" are stored and that you still need time to connect back with them.

Or it might be something else entierly. Brains are weird things after all and DID brains are weirder!
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Morwan.

It is puzzling! I can't understand why the bird didn't just bring the little girl across on its back, then they would have both been on 'this side 'with us!....why only leave an empty bag???

I guess its meant to symbolize something, but I can't figure out what they are trying to tell us!!! ..it's empty inside??? just them??? or something else??

Maybe it means "I cannot bring her yet"? Or maybe you are unable to see yet what the bird brought across the bridge?

Have you tried asking the bird?
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Morwan.