Eating, and drinking water. TW

I haven't written on the forum for a long time. It has been difficult to write.

(TW harm) My diet has always been terrible. I didn't get much food as a child and was actively gotten mad at for being hungry. I feel much shame when I want to eat and my hunger sense has been disassociated to a child alter. I also think my water has been poisoned. I get so thirsty but when I drink water I feel scared and sick. I was tricked into thinking as a child that it was spiked and would hurt me.
I know this all physically hurts my body.

I wanted to write this out to help me put all this into words. Also I wanted to ask for advice on what I should do? I try to calm the child alters but there are really strong alters/feelings against them.

OUCH.

Hugs, if wanted.

So, you try to calm the child alts, but others are harsh on them? In the same way, you were treated harshly, externally? I take it that there's not an alter that's good at, for lack of a better term, sweet-talking the others into trying to work together to at least not be hard on the Littles?

//may i suggest something to appease the child alters? maybe some sort of game, or "magic ritual" that would make the water safe to drink.//

//some syrup could be used as a "magic potion" to "magically" make the water safe to drink, for example.//

//another game could be used regarding food intake. planning the meals in advance and writing them down in the timetable as "playing house". except that it would be played with real food.//

//because the fear comes from child alters, in my opinion, the solution needs to use the point of view of a child. and children tend to enjoy playing, and to believe in magic. this could turn a negative experience into a positive one.//

//i hope the suggestions work, or give you ideas on how to make a solution work for you.//

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Ulysses.

We get round drinking issues by having "safe" fruits that provide our water when our paranoid part goes into hyperdrive. Oranges and mellons and grapes can sometimes be our only source of fluid for days.

Whew, well I can't say anything- we just remembered how we'd often think things had been poisoned, as a child- not from our parents (far as I remember) but yeah, we were very paranoid, especially with kind strangers. There is one that sticks in my mind, that involves what was our favorite gum that we were afraid to chew. So our mom chewed it, since I wouldn't take it. Mmm. We were... very.... something, as a small child.

We remember obsessing over if something is poison, or not. Haven't thought about that in years. The littles have my sympathies and it is SO hard to convince a child away from something they've firmly planted in their head and are scared of.