Can an alter split & what to do?

Hi all, it's been a long, complicated while.

I think the host, who I was possibly a part of, split today. Recently. I feel different, weird, missing pieces. I feel like I'm Evan sort of but not actually. I feel softer, kinder, more gentle and sad. I also feel younger. I feel like there's this other part of me floating nearby who's the opposite, apathetic, cold, and for lack of better word, mean.

See Evan has been really stressed, the system has, and they felt like they haven't been themselves in a while. They've felt like two different people, past them and present, emotional and empathetic to apathetic and cold. I think the stress built up, even if they didn't realize it, and a few minutes ago we learned some unfortunate information and I feel like that just made us drift apart into different pieces. I feel like something is missing and I'm scared.

I got the name "Morgan", and I feel like that's the other part I mentioned earlier. I don't have a name, I like "Lilly" or "Lilac", there's already a Lilly in the system, I feel like I'm forcing myself to right that, like a different part coming through, I'm just really confused. Really confused.I don't feel myself and I don't feel another. Any help or advice is appreciated.

Thank you <3

It also, now, feels like there are multiple ones from Evan, one taking their name, I'm still confused. Can an alter split into distinct ego states?

Hi, we're very sorry to hear that. Something similar happened to our host (Emma) before. She split into many others. They came back together recently, but there are others (in our system), that the same thing happened to. So yes, from our experience (anyway), it is possible for an alter to split.

We wish we could do more to help. We hope things improve for all of you soon!

I wonder if that's what happened to us? We've been feeling really disconnected for these last 4 years with a sense of not knowing who we were anymore!

I wonder if it could be caused by the alter experiencing the death of a (real life) loved one? ...but we've also only fairly recently discovered DID (the last few years of our lives) and also wondered if been here where everyone names their alter individually (ours didn't have their own names before coming on here) had just made them feel more seperate? ...so this mind is NOW seeing them as seperate individuals where it didn't before cos we never knew we had it?

To OP - How long have you known you have DID? Is it a new discovery to you?

It is one of the mecanism leading to the formation of new alters.

Some can pop up to contain new informations.

Some can split into different others.

Fragments can gather together into a new alter.

Other mecanisms could exist too, that I do not know of.

I hope that the situation will stabilize soon.

°°Isaïa°°

Ponyta wrote:Hi, we're very sorry to hear that. Something similar happened to our host (Emma) before. She split into many others. They came back together recently, but there are others (in our system), that the same thing happened to. So yes, from our experience (anyway), it is possible for an alter to split.

We wish we could do more to help. We hope things improve for all of you soon!

That's really good to know, that we're not alone in this. It's a scary time but this brings comfort. Thank you <3

-- Thu Aug 13, 2020 3:24 pm --

KitMcDaydream wrote:To OP - How long have you known you have DID? Is it a new discovery to you?

I learned about it september last year, never diagnosed but that's when I realized I had alters. We had alters. Idk how to say it right now.

-- Thu Aug 13, 2020 3:24 pm --

ArbreMonde wrote:It is one of the mecanism leading to the formation of new alters.

Some can pop up to contain new informations.

Some can split into different others.

Fragments can gather together into a new alter.

Other mecanisms could exist too, that I do not know of.

I hope that the situation will stabilize soon.

°°Isaïa°°

This is also really good to know. I hope the situation gets better soon, too. Thank you <3