Is it possible to have 3 hosts?

Or more than one.

I'll try not to waffle. I feel like there's three hosts basically. Me and two other unnamed parts who are like me. I feel this because I have memories shared by alters, recent ones not trauma, and they are with a "host" but it's not me. This is making everything seem more confusing. But to clarify if this is possible would be great.

Thanks

You asked something similar before:
dissociative-identity/topic216160.html

It's possible to have as many hosts as you need, including none. Or any combination of fronters and non-fronters. Every system is different.

If you identify a way things ARE in your system, there's no point in asking if that's possible in DID, because you just proved that it is.

TheGangsAllHere wrote:You asked something similar before:
dissociative-identity/topic216160.html

It's possible to have as many hosts as you need, including none. Or any combination of fronters and non-fronters. Every system is different.

If you identify a way things ARE in your system, there's no point in asking if that's possible in DID, because you just proved that it is.

Ok. Thanks Gang. I will read over that. Take care

Good catch, gang. Sarandipity, we have precisely three hosts.

We have others who may spend more time fronting than our hosts, who handle adult life stuff.

Johnny-Jack wrote:Good catch, gang. Sarandipity, we have precisely three hosts.

We have others who may spend more time fronting than our hosts, who handle adult life stuff.

I feel like I have three hosts. That they have different hosting responsibilities. I'd like to work out what they are and why but that's maybe for another time.

So to me it seems like there are 3 functioning hosts. If in the body with a host then the memory stays but if without a host there is amnesia. So if I was in the body now without a host then this would be completely amnesiac unless I shared it but because I'm with a host it'll be a hazey but easy access memory for all.

There seems to be three hosts. The one who wrote this message is re-write. Her primary job was to take alters in the body and re-write what they experienced.

The host who posted the other thread was primarily a decider of which alter experienced trauma.

The third host primary job was and still is to maintain normal life.

Re-write was pretty much still re-writing stuff. Last night she realised that was her purpose. She realised it was a void purpose. Nobody is sure if she was re-writing our abuse so it could be blamed on religion yesterday but it seems likely. With the help of Karen she was trying to change her role into recording accurate memory. But then there came a blank spot. The brain felt a division line and someone believed to be mouse was blocking it. Mouse kept repeating the mantra that rewrite was trying to use guided by Karen to change her role into recording accurate memory instead of rewriting anything and she was trying to access accurate memory but mouse didn't like it, blocked her, took the body and kept her mind blank while looking at phone, making a card and wrapping presents. There was the feeling in the brain of having a divide down the brain, that No-one felt before and managed to steal a fragment memory. No-one is a strong alter, can take the body herself fully and block all other alters. Re-write isn't that strong and couldn't do anything.

The host alter who decided about trauma has changed her role into finding everything out about each alter, their characters and interactions. So it's possible for rewrite to also change her role. I see her being more useful in other ways than recording accurate memory, we all have our own memories we don't need her to affirm them how we needed her to rewrite bad ones.

It won't work her trying to be the recorder of memories because Mouse is so resistant. Which is probably best because Mouse holds alot of trauma memory.

That's my view of it,

Beth.

We were confused on first reading about DID too and only discovered the term in the bodies 40's.

'I' (Kit) had been dormant for years after a trauma (which was basically only the amount of physical contact needed when the body first had to go into a wheelchair but being autistic this was too much for me).

I thought 'Maddie' was the host as she was the one up front most. I learned how to come up front more and block her out and we spent more time isolated. After Maddie experienced her 'breakdown' after the eldest dog who she saw as her assistance dog passed away, I was left up front but had no social skills to manage 'necessary contacts' (arranging shopping, other appointments when friends/family wanted to meet up) so Sioux was sent upfront to co-host in those situations to help.

I thought I was the 'original self' but now I'm not sure? Daisy is the youngest alter at 6, an age none of the rest of us have any conscious memory of! ..so maybe she is? The only thing we know of that happened at 6 years old was the birth of our younger sibling, could that have been seen as such a traumatic event through the eyes of a 6yr old autistic child? ..or was it the 'drowning' at junior school? (during swimming classes at a local pool, every adult alter holds a fear/phobia of swimming pools or water without seeming to know why).

I suspect being autistic from birth would have given us a pre-disposed ability to dissociate easily and for longer than non-autistic young kids would usually have this ability for? Apparently according to family accounts we had always tended to 'live in our own world' from a very early age. With us being developmentally behind (both physically and emotionally) by several years too, maybe the 'splitting of self' occurring at 6 is not so far beyond the realms of possibility, even it 'normally' occurs before the age of 5?

Every one up front for social events (school/college/work) believed they were a single personality in their time up front in the past I guess so we passed as 'normal' and 'fitted in'. But in those days we never got months to self-isolate and discover anyone else, we'd be lucky to get a couple of hours free to ourselves to daydream!

Personally I'm glad I'm getting my chance to 'live outside' due to our circumstances without having to constantly justify alone time and not wanting to see certain people (as the whole country has to stay in lock down and isolated due to the Covid19!)

Kit

KitMcDaydream wrote:We were confused on first reading about DID too and only discovered the term in the bodies 40's.

'I' (Kit) had been dormant for years after a trauma (which was basically only the amount of physical contact needed when the body first had to go into a wheelchair but being autistic this was too much for me).

I thought 'Maddie' was the host as she was the one up front most. I learned how to come up front more and block her out and we spent more time isolated. After Maddie experienced her 'breakdown' after the eldest dog who she saw as her assistance dog passed away, I was left up front but had no social skills to manage 'necessary contacts' (arranging shopping, other appointments when friends/family wanted to meet up) so Sioux was sent upfront to co-host in those situations to help.

I thought I was the 'original self' but now I'm not sure? Daisy is the youngest alter at 6, an age none of the rest of us have any conscious memory of! ..so maybe she is? The only thing we know of that happened at 6 years old was the birth of our younger sibling, could that have been seen as such a traumatic event through the eyes of a 6yr old autistic child? ..or was it the 'drowning' at junior school? (during swimming classes at a local pool, every adult alter holds a fear/phobia of swimming pools or water without seeming to know why).

I suspect being autistic from birth would have given us a pre-disposed ability to dissociate easily and for longer than non-autistic young kids would usually have this ability for? Apparently according to family accounts we had always tended to 'live in our own world' from a very early age. With us being developmentally behind (both physically and emotionally) by several years too, maybe the 'splitting of self' occurring at 6 is not so far beyond the realms of possibility, even it 'normally' occurs before the age of 5?

Every one up front for social events (school/college/work) believed they were a single personality in their time up front in the past I guess so we passed as 'normal' and 'fitted in'. But in those days we never got months to self-isolate and discover anyone else, we'd be lucky to get a couple of hours free to ourselves to daydream!

Personally I'm glad I'm getting my chance to 'live outside' due to our circumstances without having to constantly justify alone time and not wanting to see certain people (as the whole country has to stay in lock down and isolated due to the Covid19!)

Kit

So you're saying you've had a few main fronts and some who co-front over the years?

What I'm more asking about is for me it feels like there's - I'm going to use a metaphor - three different background programs that can run. I'm calling them hosts.

Then the three different background programs can run any ap (the alters) but the background program influences how the ap functions.

Two alters can be present while I host is there but the hosts awareness drops considerably if there is more than one alter.

And alter can though be in the body and doesn't need the host or background program.

So it's like say the whole system is like a Smart phone. There's a calculator, a calender, other apps and the OS.

The calender and the calculator can be open at the same time and that drops the capacity of the OS.

Or the OS can be off and the smart phone is then transformed basically just into a traditional calculator.

Except what I'm saying is it feels like I have three different operating systems.

I just wanted to add a quick response to your question - We have 12 co-hosts! So it certainly can be done!

It takes a lot of planning, working together, and kind of 'wondering around a bit lost' sometimes... but yea, it works for Us. We couldn't have any less, we would each get way, way too tired...

Good luck with your journey!


Melden