Second Christmas in a row with this Trigger Warning

****Trigger Warning***(talk of parents and stuff of a sexual nature)****


So last year around Christmas my dad took a picture of me and I was sitting in kind of a way. I didn't realize I was sitting like that. I told my mom and I sent the picture to her. She was upset because he also tries to rub my legs in the car. Anyway my dad took a picture and this time I said why are you taking that picture and do not put it on Facebook. I had one leg bent and one leg straight but I had leggings on and again didn't realize how I was sitting. He admitted that he took it because of the way I was sitting. The reason I knew he was taking a picture was because I heard the click. Anyway he went to bed. I got his phone sent the pic to my mom through my phone then erased it on his. My mom was ranting about how he is a perverted, mentally ill freak. So of course I am thinking about Abela and how she is. Sitting here feeling bad about how she is. I am also feeling so stupid for never saying anything to him when he does this. Feeling I am not protecting myself or anyone in the system. Also not wanting to step on anyone's toes so close to Christmas.

Hey Rive,

Sorry you gotta deal with that $#%^. Is there any way you can just avoid him?

Viola

I'm going to try.

It's normal for people with DID to feel shame and other conflicting feelings because of others' shameful acts. We were conditioned as children NOT to protect ourselves but we adapted to a hostile environment the best we could.