Denial when its quiet

I have denial anyway but when it is quiet for days and only seems to be really active when I'm hyper. It makes mr doubt.

Yeah V1 used to get that too. Like if things went quiet on her for a day or two she'd start going into this denial thing, questioning and doubting everything.

Its rare for us to have everything quiet for that long any more. Like a day at most now, and even that's pretty rare?

I think its cos we've worked alot on like communication and stuff, or just like being really open? Like, sometimes it only seems quiet cos we're avoiding and not listening. At least, I'm pretty sure that was V1's problem sometimes.

Viola

I'm in a bit of denial today myself. I logically know yesterday was hard. I think it was yesterday. I keep getting my days muddled up. I'm going with it being yesterday that was hard.

I logically know I'm part of a DID system. I logically know yesterday (probably) was hard and that there was chatter or voices randomly saying stuff.

I personally feel no connection to it. I logically know but it's more like an idea or a concept that is physically away from me, not part of me even though logically I know it is part of me.

I guess enjoy the quiet? Be aware it's not permanent but enjoy it?

I do that too. It's odd-- I openly talk out loud to my alters in conversation (when I'm on my own) and talk about them with trusted friends (they've come out to these friends as well), yet when it comes down to the question of "Do I have alters?", I still question it all the time. I constantly question myself as to whether I'm making it up or not. It doesn't make any sense. XD
What helps me is to ask myself, "Is it possible for me to be making ALL of these things up?" The voices, the amnesia, the distinct feeling of individuality my alters have expressed, the journal entries that I don't remember... It's all too much to be just a coincidence.
Although I don't have a diagnosis, it doesn't mean that what I and the others feel is invalid. I am in the process of being diagnosed though, so that's... going to be an experience.
-Jude (host)

Thanks guys. I'm just struggling because my mood has been down and I hardly hear chatter anymore. My alters dont come out since hypnosis. I dont lose time. DID doesnt just go away. Mine seems to be so maybe I never had it. The chatter did say something about sleep, whether it be death(a child tone) or actual sleep at least 30 times yesterday which makes me think my brain has just formed a rut and these repetitive thoughts just replay and they arent actually alters.

Rive wrote:Thanks guys. I'm just struggling because my mood has been down and I hardly hear chatter anymore. My alters dont come out since hypnosis. I dont lose time. DID doesnt just go away. Mine seems to be so maybe I never had it. The chatter did say something about sleep, whether it be death(a child tone) or actual sleep at least 30 times yesterday which makes me think my brain has just formed a rut and these repetitive thoughts just replay and they arent actually alters.

I had somebody saying "that was a nice nap" over and over again the other day. Hadn't even had a nap. Very irritating.

If everything quietens down then on the up side you haven't got DID or at least you're getting a rest from the parts talking - so either way it's good.

If they do come back at least you've had a rest and you'll be prepared. You'll know it's just parts of you saying stuff and maybe it won't be so difficult as it has been this time?