Do you alters ever do this

Do your alters ever mention you by name. So today I was thinking about something and I thought how do you know D. It is so freaky to me when this happens and it makes me feel like I am losing my mind.

Sometimes.

Yesterday I woke up and my brain started day dreaming about one of the twins stories/delusions about aliens and some long alien war. Then another voice said "stop. You were extensively abused by your parents, you have a traumatized mind" and then I heard my father's voice say "now except it" and saw the image of my father aggressively pointing at me and that was a phrase he used. I said "oh that's nice, use my father to ram the point home" and the original voice in my brain, which was Paul said, "I thought it might help" and then a third voice, I don't know who that was said "phew that was a close one" Because I nearly woke up and drifted into a delusional world of aliens rather than continuing to live in what is a harsh reality. It feels disconnected from me, the flashbacks, the realisation but it's still difficult to accept it fully or be angry or any emotions about it really. Harsh reality is better than a delusional world of alien stories or matrix stories or one of their many other stories.

So I have what you tend to call "chatter" I've always called it a conversation with myself inside my head.

It can be mundane to like "I don't want to wear that" "ok we'll wear something else then" or this is worse..

Karen was chatting away to a receptionist and she's very friendly. This has happened many times and we used to get completely confused and think why is that person chatting to ne. But since I'm more aware of myself I'm more aware of what happens. Karen chatted to the receptionist. The next time it was Paul who went there. The woman smiled friendly and he didn't return it, remembered Karen chatted to her through sent images, and Paul thought "you can f yourself" because he's not big on small talk so I think the f yourself was directed at Karen not the or possibly also the receptionist. But he just thought it so it was fine.

Occasionally in the past his comments have slipped out like when he called a shop assistant "lazy bitch" because she didn't want to walk down stairs and get the correct item after trying to give us the wrong item. That was embarrassing.

Dnester wrote:Do your alters ever mention you by name. So today I was thinking about something and I thought how do you know D. It is so freaky to me when this happens and it makes me feel like I am losing my mind.

Several of mine talk to me, calling by name sometimes to get my attention, yes. It is not uncommon to "overhear" two of them talking when they're close and then "Hey, Zor, that was a question for you!" or "Zor, why don't we...". It IS weird but I'm getting used to it... it's not nearly as common as I'd like, honestly- the communication this way.

It's a sign of alters being "closer" to me than distant and inside. I'd prefer all of them be close enough to be able to communicate and be aware... for ALL of our sake (and me to be able to be so aware and close to them when they are out, instead of oblivious entirely).

Dnester wrote:Do your alters ever mention you by name.

Yes....that happens a lot.

How else are we supposed to address each-other or talk about each-other to outsiders who know we are not alone in here?

~Theia~