When everything is fine

Are there are days when your alters seem just different versions of yourself and not other persons living inside you? Are there are days when you feel that nothing is up and you have just created this situation?

Yes quite frequently, hard to handle, but normal for me. Things always tend to Come back.. And then I remember again.

Hey donna1995,

So we have times where like they're all quiet inside, and whoever's fronting starts to feel alone and then sometimes starts to feel like it's all made up and stuff.

They always come back though.

Viola

Personally having one of those moments today. People inside are quiet, and the Guardian is the only one that I feel close to the front. Plus, I started doing research on DID through experiments and research articles (the ones that always call DID a "controversial disorder" and constantly compare it to BPD), which might have triggered the whole thing.

But like Allcoulors said, memories of (and amnesia for) unexplainable things and of all possible reasons why some things happened come back, and I volountairly start to analyse them all over again. In the end, even when I feel like I'm just conditioning myself in feeling and acting like I have a disorder, I remember that the one and only explanation for everything that has ever happened and continues to happen, is this precise diagnosis. Or at least, if not DID, it's DDNOS. It all comes back to rational explanations to me.
I checked every single diagnosis and consulted too many therapists to say that I don't know myself by now.

So, if you can, just try to think about DID not just as a label, but an explanation. Don't know how to express it differently, but I hope this helps. Have a great day!

exul wrote:So, if you can, just try to think about DID not just as a label, but an explanation. Don't know how to express it differently, but I hope this helps. Have a great day!

One of Autumn J's favourite saying is "labels are for cans, not for people"

But, yes we agree with exul, seeing it as an explanation, even if that times Purple Haze doubts it, and she does, helps greatly. At times, she does struggle with this, but she talks to us or friends that know she has DID and it all helps.

- Joker & Jester