Everything is quiet. Possible tw?

Oh okay, thanks.

It went well and im freaking out!
Incoming: venting..

I think my t possibly found this forum, im most likely being paranoid, but it's just the way things went it was like she had read this and took notes or something? I feel bad, because a lot of the stuff that I've written could be taken badly, as if i don't like her or something? I don't know, im just really worried right now.
Sorry

Would she be able to identify you by what you have posted?

Even if they have found the forum and identified or suspect your identity you have posted nothing wrong. You are allowed to feel any way you feel, to ask questions to have doubts. If they are a good T they might want to address why you have felt negatively and how they could better help because your sessions should be about your experiences and feelings not the T's.

Could they be finally responding to the letter you gave them?

I think so, because normally i post right after a session, and i tend to go into a bit of detail about things.

She responded to the letters last session.

I guess i just feel bad because i dont want to offend her or anything.


Other than that, i guess this session went well, we talked more about dissociation, and i got to tell her about some other stuff I've been feeling, plus there were only two silences. To be honest, i dont really remember much about this session, but yeah, sorry for my little rant/vent, i was just scared i could have offended her if she found this.

Sorry i post about the smallest things here, i dont have anyone to talk to about this stuff, often.

I've recently realized that I become easily annoyed and snappy with my family, i guess im looking for advice on what to do about this.
Before when this was happening i was feeling as though my family weren't mine, almost as if i had been plopped into a random household, but this time it's just me being super annoyed fairly quickly, and getting snappy (what i think is snappy, but my mom doesnt think so, this hadnt happened for a while, at least i dont remeber it happening), i normally just go to my room and think about all the stuff they've done for me, and basically try and figure out what the root of the problem is for me, but I'm currently trying to stay around my family since i stay in my room all the time and "daydream".

Any advice or extra input?

Hey, Soggycereal, no subject too small. Besides, this is your journey thread.

We get it about feeling snappy at family members. Our body age is 56; one brother (B1) is 54 and has a wife and two teenage daughters. They live four hours away from us. Our other brother (B2) is mildly disabled and is about to turn 50. He has a full-time clerical job and lives by himself in an apartment about 20 minutes from us. The apartment's tiny and a dump, but he likes his independence.

We get very frustrated at B2 sometimes. He has at least average intelligence, but his thought processes and his short-term memory are not what they should be. Oftentimes we wish that B1 lived closer so that he could take a more active role in guiding B2. They do talk on the phone regularly, but to us/MDs it doesn't seem like enough. It's hard enough dealing with our own issues without having to deal with B2's issues on top of this.

We don't want to hijack your thread. But we wanted you to know that we hear you and identify.

MDs

Thank you so much, any kind or reply is enough for me!

I really hope that things ease up on you all.

Soggycereal wrote: i was just scared i could have offended her if she found this.

When I decided to start posting on this forum, I told my T that I was worried that he would go on it, and he straight up promised that he wouldn't. I print out posts that I want him to see, since I (and other parts) express things differently on here than we do directly to him, and I think it helps him get a clearer picture of me, but I would hate to be worrying that he could read whatever I wrote on here.

Maybe you can check out your fear that she read your posts--maybe it isn't accurate. And if you feel strongly that you don't want her to, perhaps she'll agree not to. I don't know--that probably depends a lot on the personality and approach of the T. Mine didn't hesitate to assure me that I would have privacy (from him) on here.

Thank you, I'll try and get myself to bring that up.

Feeling physically sick after i received an alert from facebook, a "people you may know" thing, and seen someone I've been avoiding for years now, i dont know if i could call him my abuser, so i won't, i just feel awful and it sucks because it's been a good two weeks not seeing him in my dreams anymore, and now i know he'll be back in them. I feel nauseous and im getting a really bad headache.

I don't know what this post is for, i guess i needed to vent..




Edit: im now having intense aches on the right side of my chest and the back if my head