Why is my system attacking me and uncooperative?

I believe I have two systems that I know of...maybe more.


In one system I can easily manage the personalities and everyone works together as best they can. This one I'm in however is a lot angrier and stronger and is like herding cats.


They seem very angry at me and my preference for the alters that allow me to maladaptive daydream.


They all seem bitter and im trying to connect and help but theh all seem to resent me and they work hard to make me doubt myself and my leadership.



Its very confusing to be good at this in one system and $#%^ in another. They use things agint me and hve me question myself..which causes me to disassociate and shut down. When I do that the entire system goes haywire and I got threw psychosis.

Very few care. They seem to be fine with the way things are.


And sinxe I'm cut off from maladaptive daydreaming...its like my soul is jailed. Its like I'm running without fuel. I fall apart and no one wins.


I dont get along with them and I find myself nit liking them because they dont want to open up. They usually just attack me and block me from connecting with them or connecting to parts of my mind that I need. I csnt even connect to my own feelings and emotions fully.


They lock me up abd lock me out and no matter what I say I lnow that I'm not valued,liked or even loved.

Abd no matter how hard I scream that o cant take something ...they always doubt. They either doubt my conplaints or say "she can take it.".


I've never seen anything like it. How do you see me suffering and just not care ? or is everything else more important ?



I'm not so sure what to do because I feel like its hard to sucessfully heal here when everyone wants to attack.

Or maybe I'm not understanding them ....



And I think theyre all mad at me from "giving " them DID. I think theyre angry at me for the co edition and its hard.


All I feel is shame doubt and resentment.

it is hard to be in a relationship with someone who doesn't want to be in a relationship with you.

it seems like there is a lot of desire to manage and control. On many sides. things won't get easier until there is cooperation.

you have a therapist? Maybe it is time to up the number of sessions/week for a while until you get some communication that is healthy and productive. And to sort out whether this daydreaming is really maladaptive.

For the sake of argument, it essential means that you have to know where the fine line is for when things got really great , a mostly cooperative alter his family to what happened that got it bad and when, you all said yea we are both on the same page .....The ebs and flows of the life is usually how a second system comes about mostly for the elaborate I don't know what will happen,trial and error. It is something I am looking into for myself, where will they find solace at after certain tradegies like an as the world turn.

-- Fri Jan 05, 2018 2:00 pm --

For the sake of argument, it essential means that you have to know where the fine line is for when things got really great , a mostly cooperative alter his family to what happened that got it bad and when, you all said yea we are both on the same page .....The ebs and flows of the life is usually how a second system comes about mostly for the elaborate I don't know what will happen,trial and error. It is something I am looking into for myself, where will they find solace at after certain tradegies like an as the world turn.

It's critical for those of you who can think most rationally to understand where this system --
the alters who appear to be or who are working at cross purposes to others of you -- came from. With only a knowledge of what's on the surface, it's easy, perhaps inevitable at first, for you to see them as worthy of blame, as pointless troublemakers or such.

Alters, sometimes whole subsystems, frequently arise due to overwhelming circumstances, especially abuse and trauma. Things you may not know about yet. So these alters are you but so dissociated that they don't seem to be you, or perhaps anything like you.

All alters arose initially to help your system. Every one of them. Once you eventually learn of the circumstances under which objectionable alters came, you'll be able to see that, oh, of course they (parts of me) would turn out like that, given the terrible circumstances.

Until then, you have to keep in mind that there are reasons why they seem to think it's right to be working against you. Once their behavior was protective. It helps to start and approach them with some compassion. Most likely they endured things so others of you didn't have to. Ultimately it's not their fault and it's not your fault.