Alters that believe they are god?

I believe I have an Alter that believes he is God.

I think its been there since I was a child but I did become a born again christian when I was 16 and had a bad case of scrupulosity. Id pray for hours and do weird rituals and ...id feel happily high when I did whatever I was told to do but ...id always have to be perfect or else id feel terrible. I was under deep control.


Eventually the pressure of this alter,school and other alters and being on a whole bunch of meds to treat a condition I didnt even have...I cracked,I left christianity and i dropped out of school,hit depression and didnt look back.

16 year old me who believed know god showed up. And then....

God came back today....and now I saw it for what it really was...an alter.

I instantly felt better and more hopeful and more excited for the future...I felt stable in a certain way only 16 year old me felt.

And then came the list of things I had to do to keep the alter around....like before. I left god...a lot of good things in my life went with him.


A lot of my happiness,motivation and vision for the future is locked away in that alter.


And I started seeing memories from high school...stuff that was locked away I forgot about.



How do you deal with gid alters?

Did God come back because 16 year old me came back?

Its confusing.


All I know is my god alter is staying quiet...digesting this new info.



And someone in my system doesnt want me to talk about this .

Is it God of training day? An introject type? Well they both have similaries enjoy the Bible . I'd just pray about it ask God for discernment on the sitaution. I'd track the where abouts and those that are his friend similarities. I think a place to track God would be ideal memorization of alters whereabout is important. Someone has ask to need a break they do that cut out on you leaving a few hidden figures in the dark about it. Who it knew would be important to track back.

It sounds like this alter is significant and holds feelings, perhaps beliefs which are specific and important to your personal history, so they wouldn't necessarily be like another alter with that name. Alters holding or protecting religious beliefs aren't unusual.

I think someone on this forum years back had a gatekeeper alter named God. It may have been others who named him though, based on his knowing so much about their system. Maybe similar to how we named our gatekeeper Sphinx due to his knowledge and mysterious answers. When he spoke calming things to us internally as a child, some of us thought of him as "the voice" or a guardian angel, and maybe more.

Basically the crux of mental illness you are going to relive and make associations because it media the thing to do unless removed from all life. Introjects experience but often than not it usually ends up this way only wanting to focus on the littles depending on the severity of the inner workings' elaborateness