New here. Wondering if what I describe sounds similar

Example of what has been happening with me at the minute.

Ive been on an impulsive spending spree, buying stuff i dont really need, or want etc.

The idea of a dog entered my head. I became obsessed. At times i could see what was happening and tried fighting against it. I even told my dad, who is great at talking me round sometimes. When he did though, i was in the frame of mind where i was getting a dog.

Later that day, i snapped back and realised im acting irrationally and probably should wait until a later date. Preferably when out of my spending spree.

Later the same day, I was back thinking i need a puppy but came on here to try and stop myself messaging puppy owners.
I managed, but a man id contacted earlier called and said he had one left. That was it. I emptied my bank account and then withdrew some from my credit card. I now have a puppy.

Dont get me wrong, she will be well loved and well looked after.
During these times though i feel i have absolutely no control. Even though i can see a potential train wreck from my actions (not this time) at times - i cant stop. I suppose it was a train wreck though in the sense of money. I am now lying to my dad telling me the dog cost less than she did, saying that i have more money than i do etc.

It is my day my spend. I would check for bipolar tendency if you speak or have read about any alters. I would check for fame money spenders. I tend to think at some point when the education started to come together everybody wanted acknowledgement and would put forth what they wanted it to seem impulsive. I had to really understand why, sharing that we would get to everyone's preference as soon as possible especially don't overwhelm.

impulsivity and seeming lack of control can be a bunch of things.. this is something i did a lot when i was dealing with borderline PD, i believe reckless shopping is even in the list of DSM symptoms as an example of destructive/impulsive behaviors.

that said, it doesn't mean you have BPD. it could be a manifestation of stress, it could be someone else within you, it could be.. all kinds of stuff. i definitely suggest seeking a professional with whom to discuss things. and maybe keeping a journal to sort some of your thoughts out. though it can be scary, i find that really helpful.