Need Advice please....just advice from personal experience

I am here for advice. I lost my whole session yesterday and was there for 6 hrs vs my normal 1. T helped keep me there to stay safe. I feel bad, they feel bad.....the little ones feel bad. They have been crying a lot. I am having a hard time because this has never happened. I talked to T today and she is going to be talking to her colleague about how to handle this. (This gives me the impression that she does not know what to do or how to handle this) In talking to her she said I have a couple options until she talks to her colleague. Either I can keep going away, and let them talk to her, or we can work on keeping just me there, but she said the alters will get angry. I do not know what to do. I am afraid to even go back as there was some self harm involved in those 6 hours that I do not remember, and am afraid of what exactly went on in those 6 hours. So just a question and if you cant answer that is ok. Can alters get angry with T or with me if I decide to try to keep myself there in the body the whole time? I have already been working adamantly on this especially during session to keep me there with her, but it has not worked to be there the whole session. I need to know what goes on during sessions but am afraid to ask or afraid to ask to have it voice recorded. Actually I am afraid to bring up the discussion of dissociating at all with T. But she says she can tell when someone else is there, so if she is comfortable with it then why is it that I am not. Any advice please.

That sounds scary for you and your therapist. I don't have any personal experience with something like this to share. Alters have feelings about things same as anyone would, so sure they could feel angry if deprived the chance to express themselves, or if they thing someone is endangering them by talking about forbidden topics. I hope you and your therapist can come up with a creative solution that suits everyone.