Rambling Rant *TW*

TW?

Thank you everyone. It's been helpful.

I feel like I'm living with a sheet draped over my head and body, I can still perceive and interact with the world around me, but my ability to do so is hindered and limited. I have issues with motivation, I have issues with keeping up a casual conversation.
I keep bringing my problems here and I don't feel like I should sometimes, I feel like I should just deal with them myself. Is that what got me here?
Is it that obvious to everyone but me?
It would be. I suppose.
Denial seems real, it's comforting in a way, it's a way out, a way back, and thus I seem to cling to it.
I'm multiple?
I guess I though it would feel more, but I feel like less.
Why am I getting tired so quickly?
Is it bad that I wish it were a physical injury instead sometimes?
I don't need to be thinking this much after a long day.

TW

I'm sore.
There are things I don't know if I want to say.
Why the self hate, it's painful, it sucks, so why?
I don't know if I acting or telling the truth.
I don't know if I want to hurt myself or try to make myself feel better
I'm not sure, I'm not sure if I even feel the thing I just said.
I'm confused.
But talking it out helps, so i keep doing that.
Rhomboid I think.
Sometimes, alot of times I feel normal, maybe I'm just normal, maybe I don't need to go to the doctor.
I know....I guess this is denial.
I'm not sure of anything anymore.