How are you today thread (trigger warning)

It has been a great day, I watched The Perks of Being a Wallflower with a friend of mine, we played cards and then he followed me to the bus when I was going home. He hugged me and it was great, as I said he followed me, because it was dark outside and I think that's a bit scary. We had such a good time.

not been doing so good for the last few days. this is unusual, normally I'd feel better after a few hours.
I guess I'm just a little unmotivated at how slowly I'm losing weight when thinking about how much I want to lose... HAVE to lose -.- I wish I could just wake up thin. Or better yet, in another, perfect, body.

*trigger warning*

Bad day :/
Hating everything and everyone, including myself.
Everything I do seems to be wrong.
Whatever I do, I always end up accidentally hurting someone,
and doing nothing at all makes me feel even worse.
Also slowly slipping into denial again...

I just hope tomorrow will be a better day...

I didn’t think I would get the flashbacks inside, but I did. I feel everything, and it’s even worse outside. I ######6 feel used. I ######6 hate my life.

-Tom

I'm not too good. the past few days I've been dealing with some difficult emotions and don't know whether they are my own.
Last night in bed, before I fell asleep, I heard in my head "It's L..." I don't remember the whole name now, but a female name. I don't know whether it was just me falling asleep and not an alter talking to me, but I feel so conflicted now.

I live with my fiance, but I've thought I might be bisexual for years, even though I've never kissed a girl. But the past few days I got this extremely strong desire to be with a girl and leave my fiance. And now I don't know what to do or how to feel about it because it's making me question whether I'm in love with my fiance in the first place.

If it was an alter who likes girls, and not me, would there be a way for me not to feel what she feels?

It feels like some kind of torture, going back and forth between dreaming of being with a girl, and being stuck with a man and never being able to be with a girl.

(even if it's an alter, my fiance already said that he wouldn't be comfortable with an alter dating (or whatever) someone else)

It's just hard for me to discern whether it's an alter because I'm not really distanced from the feeling. It does feel like it's me who wants to be with a girl. It just doesn't make sense.

That sounds like it could be a female alter influencing you girly. Sometimes for us we find passive influence to be less if we actually listen to and try to engage the part that does it. Usually it's just a way for them to get our attention or it happens on its own. Sometimes it helps at least

scare n tumy hurting. dady yeled befor. i am in my rom wit blankys n pilow. at least i lik my rom it is prety wit animal prints al over.

I'm sorry you're scared. Maybe you can do something nice to help you feel better?

I hate missing someone who doesn't care enough to miss me back. Longing is one of the worst feelings.

I always feel lonely. No one seems like wants to be friend with me. But Rana can be friend with me a little. But I want real friends. I'm such an attention seeker.
Btw, I'm not like too shy to talk anymore. And I'm back.
-Nurul, 15