How are you today thread (trigger warning)

RIP 5th job in 2 years

Today I stumbled across a collection of our system's beginnings. I feel like I've uncovered a huge part of our internal and external history. It is so neat reading back and realizing how far some of us have come.
I'm really thankful for our journals.- Myra

i need someone to save me. im so sick of suffering in silence
no one cares and im all alone except for the stupid ######6 voices in my head


going to do something stupid

Hi was that Alex that needs some help if so I could do with a friend I have no one if you want send me a Message and we could chat.

Look forward too hear from you Bobby

I'm okay. I feel confused though, hurt. Feeling like there are mini emotional flashbacks going on. I just want to move on.

Hoping everyone feels better soon Safe hugs to those who want them.

Hi not having a good time of it my two sisters are in morning and not dealing with it well I can understand The man was a great one I even got on with him so some of what I am filling I think is coming from me. For Babs though it is very hard He was the man she first said daddy to what is funny about this is that she is white and at the time very white blond hiar and chaly was from Trinidad and as it was at an athletic meeting and the men were in siglets and shorts and she grabed him round the leg when she said it you can understand the tessing ower Dad got. So Babs became his special daughter there friendship and when BJ took over they became close to as he was a Gentalman of the first livel we will all miss him greatly.
So I am getting more time out but the fillings are hard for me to dill with so I know they are going though hell.
I need my sister to get it togiver just got ower ESA form to fill in for Benifits I can not make head or tails of it.

Angel: I was diagnosed with cyclothymia yesterday, and I'm having trouble accepting the diagnosis. I don't know how to handle it.

Struggling with no alcohol and and not many alters around during pregnancy.
I feel completely abandoned by my system even though Jeremy and Barry have been around.

Charlie still views Dellaware as an abuser and it's becoming a strain to feel as if a ghostly childlike presence is floating around.

I'm completely repulsed by the fact my partner won't stop smoking weed. Sometimes I can't even stand to touch them half the time. But I know he won't quit even though he is about to become a Father.
And I don't want my daughter growing thinking that drugs are okay. gosh when I was a kid my father left a bong out and I drank the water leaving me stoned for 2 days. Do I even want to risk that.

I'm repulsed by myself for not being able to quit smoking. But every time I don't have a smoke for at least a day I imagine murdering everyone in the house.

Just simply miserable today.

My tummy hurts and I'm confused. I haven't thought about my husband's alter in awhile now. But I'll be getting married in October and like always with the major events in my life I tend to get sad. It's been years now since I last spoke to him and yet like the fool I am I find myself sitting and waiting for him to show up.