If you have ever posted here, please read this.

I hope all goes well for you, and thanks for the reassurance Oaktree...

It's ok. you're welcome. It's just that the host struggles with it
I still feel like I'm ... grr denial. Anyway, struggling but managing. Thank you for the thought.

So do I. I had major Argument with Steve yesterday... We cussed each other out...

Well, I'm not posting often, quite simply because I feel it'll only make other people feel worse; I'm a burden, and my problems, are they really that important to be cared about ?

-- EDIT 20:37 EST

And it's not like I can provide much help anyway.

Yes they are lifepuzzle! And you're no burden! You have problems, like any of the rest of us. We're all here to help. And also to be helped. We all share burden. That makes it not really any burden at all. We're all willing to help, or we wouldn't post.

But you can put your experience out there. That helps people more than you know. It justifies their own and lets people konw they aren't making it up and they aren't alone.

I'm so flattered I was thought of! I'm still around here too! I'm on every day, several times a day, but like a lot of the others, about 90% of everything I write with the intent to post, whether a thread or comment, ends up deleted....and when I do post I usually don't remember it until hours or days later...or until I accidentally stumble on it lol.

I think part of it is I feel like I'm either repeating myself, repeating something someone else has posted about already, and to be honest, theres still the fear of my experiences being invalidated and being rejected. I've had nothing but validation and acceptance here though...without you guys I have no doubt I would've given up on this a long time ago like I always have so I thank everyone for that! It's just an in general fear when discussing DID, but I know this fear goes with the point of DID, so I am working on it!

Something happened a couple months ago and everyone inside has been silent since. My brain has gone back to almost immediately forgetting most of what I become aware of (also another reason I haven't posted much). So I feel like I'm back at the beginning....but I think I'm on the right track. I'm just trying to take things a bit slower this time to avoid overwhelming the whole system again.

sweet u would think of us and others too sometimes im more of a lurker than a poster lol and other times i go off for a few months than come back. we hope your doing ok too.

Hi. I'm back. I've had a bad month, maybe 6 weeks. Now that my birthday is over I'm doing better and will likely be on this forum again.
I know I just fell off the radar there.

Hello Rain Shay Cassie Cassandra and Company! I don't post a lot as I'm not online at home! And other things. Definitely on the up. I was living in some godawful place and I had no memory of moving there, think some child persona took over for that move! I managed to avoid being assaulted, knifed or burgled for 18 months and have just moved to a place I really love. Been operating multiply, a great kind of multi-tasking multi-awareness, really into the good side of being multiple. That's how the latest move was orchestrated. Changed my whole life.

***TRIGGER WARNING***

Needed a couple of gynaecological procedures recently which was not easy. Realised I always refuse a general anaesthetic because I don't like people doing things to me while I'm asleep. Also I don't sleep much as I'm scared of somebody coming into the room. And there are always some personalities awake even if I'm asleep myself. Toughed it out with a local the first time. Had a general the second time. It's all about CONTROL.

***END OF TRIGGER WARNING***

Therapist is brilliant. I'm going great guns.

Thanks for remembering me. Always like your posts.

Tale care and good-night!!!

This thread is really nice to read. IT is comforting to us that people have the same reasons as we do for not posting. Deleting posts, feeling that our comments are irrelevant or that we're thread stoppers. Plus the triggering - some days it is ok and other We just cant take it.

zest, in your trigger post - I have the exact same ones. And I have had 5 surgeries, 3 with general. It sucks.