The Honesty Thread. (may contain triggers)

L. C. - did i get that right? i'm fuzzy so... - suggested in the teen thread that we create an Honesty thread.

so this would be the place where you can be honest without discrimination. talk about something you hate but generally keep to yourself or maybe something that makes you secretly happy. it can be anything. so be honest!

i'm going to start with a pretty tame one:

i hate horror films. i hate the plots, i hate all the gore, i hate how the few times i've seen parts of one the girl is always an idiot. and i hate how most of Jo and her husbands movies are horror films. I come out and if i want to watch a damn movie i barely can because of all the gorey horror films they love to own. i hate that.

so yea, tame and probably lame. but i used that first just to show you can be honest about everything here, even if you think it's lame.

~ Rachelle

Yeah, you got it right, it was L.C. who suggested it.

I'm feeling honesty (mostly 'cause I'm high and finally calm), but I still feel like I don't want to be seen so I'm still typing small.

But I figured I'd go ahead and post here while I'm feeling honest, or at least brave enough to be honest.

So, I've got a tame one and a not-so-tame one. I'll go with the tame one first.

I actually really like the color pink, some shades more than others. (For those that think that's not a big deal, for our system it kinda is. NO ONE really likes pink in our system other than like, Lynn, and I think Cassie thinks it's ok, but that's about it. And my sister L.C. hates it with a deep fiery passion). I hate how pink is stereotyped as "girly" and "preppy" though. And I don't like too much pink. I usually like the combo of black and pink, as cliche as it is.

**Trigger Warning!: mentions sex/sexual stuff**
And the not-so-tame-one:
I don't like sex. Or any sexual stuff for that matter, really. Actually, you know what? I hate pretty much all sexual stuff. I don't see why it's so important to most people, I don't see why it's so appealing to most people, I don't see why it's so desired, and I don't see why it seems to be the main focus of nearly every single freaking person. The most sexual sh*t I can see myself doing is like, kissing or cuddling, and that's it. ( Am I weird?)
**End Trigger Warning**
Oh, and I don't really like hugs either. Never really have.

*whew!* It feels weird to say that stuff but it also sorta feels like, refreshing or something in some way...

~Luna

I hate idiots that simply don't believe in DID because it's the pop culture thing to do.

My alter has stolen two of my boyfriends. Neither of which were attracted to men until they met him, and both are now florid bisexuals.

deleted cause I did it wrong

*BIG TRIGGER for the whole post*

i want it to hurt because that's what i deserve
sorry

You deserve so so much more, LittleRedDogToo. I understand the feeling though. I feel the same way.

Luna: you're not the only one who doesn't like sexual stuff. I used to want it, but now it feels wrong somehow and I don't want it. Or try to hide my desires. And I haven't been through any abuse that could explain it (I hope).

LittleRedDogToo: no one deserves to be hurt. Especially you don't deserve it. You are much more worth than that.

tomboy24 wrote:

**Trigger Warning!: mentions sex/sexual stuff**
And the not-so-tame-one:
I don't like sex. Or any sexual stuff for that matter, really. Actually, you know what? I hate pretty much all sexual stuff. I don't see why it's so important to most people, I don't see why it's so appealing to most people, I don't see why it's so desired, and I don't see why it seems to be the main focus of nearly every single freaking person. The most sexual sh*t I can see myself doing is like, kissing or cuddling, and that's it. ( Am I weird?)
**End Trigger Warning**
Oh, and I don't really like hugs either. Never really have.

*whew!* It feels weird to say that stuff but it also sorta feels like, refreshing or something in some way...

~Luna

*Trigger Warning*
You're not weird, I don't like sex either. Actually, I hate it. I feel pretty much the same way as you do about it. I don't understand why it's the main focus of everyone too. I don't understand why it's so important. I don't understand how something that causes so much pain and suffering could be enjoyable.
*End Trigger*

Honestly, people who lack common sense drive me f'ing crazy. I hate it when people blame others for their own actions. I hate it when people say their sorry, bc it seems like they think they can do something bad as long as they just apologize if they get caught.

i'm scared of the dark and im scared of monsters under my bed...and i don't even have an under the bed bc i have a waterbed frame i hate my conscience, i think i have more of it than most people and i feel like its the reason i have DID and the reason i've gone through everything i have. im always worried about what people think about me, i dont want to hurt or disappoint anyone bc then ill feel bad and ill disappoint myself so i always try to do the right thing. but everyone whos abused me is living happy functionable lives and im a complete self hating miserable disaster. i dont like where my conscience has got me. if i was a bad person like everyone else i could be happy too i hate that i feel like this but it does feel better to get that out there.

Luna, I agree with you. I don't get what the big deal about sex is. I hate how it makes me feel so ashamed. I don't u.derstamd why its so important. To me, its disgusting. Alysone

This is Desiree. I hate Alysone cuz she doesn't like sex and sex is my only reason for being. Or at least it was until I had a new memory two weeks ago. Now the memory has ruined everything and I don't even want sex anymore so I should just die. Desiree