I am really worried about my memory problems that has surfaced in the last few years. So I have been under alot of stress, from mental and physical trauma to harrassment from abusive people, and stress of losing work. I suffer from depression and anxiety for a long time.
I started noticing I don't remember personal events, like I took road trips and not remember much what we did or where we went. Even my own wedding 2 years ago was a foggy haze. I forgot what we did for our anniversary too last year and need prompts from my husband. I mess up the time of events, like I will think it happened last week when it was just 2 days ago. It feels like I lost the sense to tell the timeline of events. This is true for both happy and sad events. When I get into a big argument with hubby, I will forgot the reason why I was so upset, and get confused. But remember feeling angry but not why. During this period, I also don't recognize myself in the mirror sometimes, it feels like my reflection will start talking back to me. I also feel very detached sometimes and forgot how it feels to be depressed. Once I went to put out the trash to realize I already did it, and the memory of it is hazy.
Now thinking back, I realize I don't remember much of every year, perhaps a few memories each year. All those memories are very foggy. It is really scary and I feel like I am breaking. I realize I don't actually remember much of my childhood and teens.