Loved one with cyclothymia

Sarahsparkle,
Welcome to the board! Glad you found the board too!! This site is great... and there's even fun forums on here where you really don't hafta have a point to write something at all. Pls feel free to post as much as you like. Ppl on the boards are very supportive and wonderful to talk to and share experiences with.

Many hugs,
Kosh

Hi Kosh
Thanks for your lovely reply and I will have a look around to see what the fun forums are like! I have just posted on the 'New Mediator'. I am looking forward to learning lots of new stuff on here and it really is so wonderful to feel I have a place to come and talk to people who will understand me & not judge me for being a crazy lady!
Thanks again

Big hugs & kisses
Sarah x

saaristonlapsi

i think we help each other on ths topic well me anyway. i think we have both come a long way. i went docs to day told him ive been cycling a lot lattly witch makes it harder that usal to cop in one day and speacialy on the hubby i can be not very pleasent as u know lol. but they are short lasted the nasty side if your wondering just so u know im not horrible to hubby for to long lol. i told him i think i need a go off my meds cos i cant aford it. he says no but what am i ment to do. just keep going till were financualy in truble to deep. my hubby say we get rid of the phone and internet to pay 4 my pills in stead lol cos he likes me on them ha ha. i must be to hard to deal with with if im not on them. i have to get more bloods done again be4 the end of this week cos i see my psychiatrist next week and he needs to see my leavels agin grr. and i had to ask doc to bulk bill me 4 that and write on the referal bulk bill just dont have the money all the time to spend on medical. and its not like i go cloths shopping and by things i shouldnt cos i dont i dont have the money to begin with. i asked doc about the tiedness. he said make shore i get right amount of hours sleep and take valium to make shore i get a good sleep. witch i already do that some times any way. but i do try to keep off the valium cos its more 4 anxiety. and its addictive. but at the end the doctor pulled his chair closer to me and said i was doing so grate and that im luky to be working and keeping my head above it all . even though it seems like i could slip under any time but im just hanging on tight every day. and he was so proud to that im noticing my symtoms and keeping up with every dayliy life. so im happy hes happy it makes me happy.

babygirl, I know fully well how it is with money. Doctors, pills... Not to mention that all the out-of-control spending from before is still weighing us down, and will be for quite some time. But just like your hubby, I feel the same way about my wife. But I'm sure like me, he feels that your well-being is more important than the money, more important than the internet etc. It's not so much about not liking you without them.

I was talking with my coworker the other day, and she was telling me how one of her friends is bipolar, and how he tried to kill himself. I hadn't told her about my wife at all, but she went on to describe how his friend was, and boy did it sound familiar. Especially when she talked about how he would get angry over nothing.

Although of course I don't want anybody being sick, but just finding out that you're not alone is a huge thing for me, and I'm sure for you too.

How is your sleep? With myself, I've noticed that sleeping too much can be just as bad as not sleeping enough. And not only that, do you have a regular sleep pattern or do you go to sleep whenever and wake up whenever?

sarahsparkle, welcome from me too! I'm not cyclothymic, but you probably figured that out already. I hope you've found our little discussion helpful!

saaristonlapsi

yes i know he worries about me being well and healthy to the best i can be. for both our sakes. lifes much easier for both of use. i had my bloods done. i have the psychiatrist again later. im getting sick of it all. i just want to feel like living life like every one else and not feel traped some days.

yes as you know we can lose it very quick and its usaly cos we get emotional but dont show it right away. we show the angery side first then let the rest of the emotions out. ive been good lately like that well 4 a week as far as i can remember lol. i supose is a good thing not getting made.

yes im the same if not enough sleep and if to much it makes thing worse. i always have to work out what time to go to bed so i get around 7 or 8 hours sleep. so ive been really consintrating on that to see how my moods are throught the day. and taking valium be4 bed ive been have straight sleeps right through with out waking up witch makes me feel like ive had a good sleep. but i still get the tiedness through the day. witch is a wonder to me. i think its just drowsiness due to all the pills.

ive cut down my zoloft by 25mg with out docs permision lol just to see what happens but the may say diff to day when i see him. cos i cant aford it so i plan to ween my self off it slowly. cos my mood stabilizers are more inportante than the anti-depressant. and i have noticed a difference in the few month of being on them. i know ya ment to be on them for a year be 4 really work.

sarahsparkle

yes welcome to always join in with us and have a chat.

How have you being feeling for the past few days, babygirl? Any changes? For the better I hope.

I had an opportunity to try out yoga recently, and I think I like it. I could imagine it being helpful in dealing with cyclothymia as well... Have you tried it, or anyone else who might be listening? I hope to get my wife interested, but like with so many things, it's difficult to get her started, and even more difficult keeping her interested in it.

saaristonlapsi

yer the appintment went good. i told him i downed my zoloft ha ha. he said thats ok. i havent been as tied this week. but imm moore in a depresed shape the last 4 days. im having silly obsessed thoughts again well more than usall. he said it all good to be on meds why conciving and being preges. just a few little things but not to worrie about yet.ive been reall snappy and shot tempered and just dont feel like company or people around me this week. it will pass it always dose im more on a downer. yoga yer a lot say they like and helps. but i already go to the gym and its the amount of time in the day to do things and money lol. ive tryed relaxation methodes but didnt work cos i was always to fidety or restles or iratable. and i have shot atention span. im not really like when my mind it at the monent its a but negative, but i know it will pass and to not let it get to me but it dose some times. hoping it pases soon to positive.

So it has been pretty smooth sailing for the past month or so. Until today. We had a joint session with the pdoc, and her anger just flared up during the session, and spilled over to the parking lot, and after.

And we were just supposed to take the rest of the week off, and go away someplace together.

Perfect timing.

You know, maybe that was the whole reason for the outburst... Even she said that she felt that we had been closer in the past few weeks. But why would she want to sabotage that, even if not knowingly?

saaristonlapsi

its a good thing her moods are different each time you go and its good for the theripest to shee her in that mood so they can avaluate her better being able to see different moods. or was it just in the parking lot not in the theripest office. it sounds like she was under a lot of stress and anxiety even though she might not of now it at the time for her to burst like that. that can happen to me some times all of a sudden i just flips out my mood i cant help it. and worriey dose it to. its the way cyclothymia work lol we cycale with our moodes unexpecdedly. and we hate it more that athers. i hope yous still went on your holiday to give your selfs a brake it would of done use good. even though packing stresses me out and making shore we leave on time and get were where ment to be on time can actully be more stressfull than just being at home even though its a brake but some times our minds dont see it like that. thats were u would have to just help and reansure her just relax nothing bad will happen were going to have a good time and tell her dont be so hard on your self loosen up dont be tense relax. we for get the real resons cos we cant see past the worrie and stress..

maby reminde her when she felt close to you tell her to go back and remember that feeling and try keeping that in her mind and heart. and things will progress. are yous still doing the writting down thing to each other or haven needed to lately.