Addicted to lying? HELP.

I have told what I believe are little white lies my entire life, such as lying about how nice my house is as a child, in order to impress friends, to lying about taking something from my sister that didn't belong to me. I feel as though this lying addiction has taken over my life, and is about to destroy my relationship to my boyfriend of 4 and 1/2 years. I lie to him about stupid things...If I have an alcohol beverage and he asks me about it, I lie and say "no, I am not drinking." I have gone through his things and found painkillers, took them, and when he asked me about it I again lie and say "no, I didn't take anything." He always finds out that I am lying, and of course it makes me feel shameful. I so very badly want to stop doing this, not just for my relationship, but for myself. I know I have a problem, and I am going to see a therapist very soon. In the meantime, I could definitely use some help anywhere I can get it. Thank you for reading this, and I appreciate any help.

-Kimberly

Hi Kimberley,
Well done for having the courage to face yourself and reach out to ask for help. That is the first and hardest step. Just know that you are not alone with this addiction and that you fit perfectly within the lying addiction definition I came up with... “The condition of being addicted to lying as a normal and reflexive way of responding to life where the intention is not to cause harm to others.”

If you have read around the forum a bit, you have probably already found these posts I did on why lying addicts lie and how to stop lying but just in case you haven't, here they are...

compulsive-lying/topic115788.html

compulsive-lying/topic116107.html

If you do go to a therapist, find one who understands about addiction else you could possibly be wasting your money. I found through my research on the subject that counselors and therapists know next to nothing about compulsive lying when seen within an addiction context.

Do keep coming back. Don't try to do this on your own.
Big Hug,
Billi