You KNOW You're BPD When...

justagirl00 wrote:Mine is at about $8/gallon

Haha!, at 8/gal I'll drink the gas and push your car myself!

Private Joker wrote:

justagirl00 wrote:Mine is at about $8/gallon

Haha!, at 8/gal I'll drink the gas and push your car myself!

^^^

I'm sure you have other talents better put to use though

You get off the treadmill one minute early and beat yourself up for being lazy.

When you drop your bottle of body wash while thinking about someone you hate, and decide that the logical response is to scream the F word and throw the bottle against the shower door, cracking the door as a result.

when the inside of your head sounds like this 24 hours a day

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n3N_Lkgftc4

When this can accurately describe your anger issues.

When your favourite pastimes are thinking about suicide and taking anxiety medication.

yea.. ..i was torn apart between laughing and crying and feeling annoyed while reading the posts,

and wishing it was all made up.., cause then everything would be a funny or sad fiction, and no (@!@@@! up) reality to people,who suffer A LOT and go through A LOT OF $#%^.... but then again,
i really have a strange sense of humour, and can relate to sooooo many posts, wich felt wonderful.

YOU KNOW YOU HAVE BPD when you post in an english speaking forum because you feel paranoid of people knowing you re struggling with bpd, and dont assume your friends(i got no friends) or family to look $#%^ up here..

then again you feel lost, because your english is really poor, and your grammar is a bitch, and nobody reads your first drunk high confused Post(in fact many read it, but i got only 2 replies, wich killed me, because i needed somebody to tell me ANYTHING- i felt so dead inside, abused, dirty, #######5, i needed somebody to empower me, wich is ridicilous-- i dont know anybody here. And why the ###$ would anybody bother my bpd symptoms--even in this kind of forum full of bpds- i never been to a forum, and have no idea how to behave, i guess i am just wrong-and you can hate me all)...then you panic and try to erase it because you think you told too much of secret stuff to a bunch of people who cant take you seriously because of your confused writing style,and then editing didnt work anymore,and there is no way of deleting the painfully embarassing stuff you wrote. so everybody will sit an laugh about your dumb problems for ever. and everybody in your life will find out.- anybody an idea about deleting posts?

you know you re bpd .. when you feel "sexually used"(like a sexdoll) by your bf cause he was treating you rough in bed (but you usually like it rough ...and then you moan after sex, cry & insult him & feel depressed---and the next day you cuddle for hours.. .and then you want him, but it "doesnt work" because of erectile dysfunction. you start hating the guts out of him, yelling at him, that he is manipulating you,never loved you and that he surely wathces too much porn.. ..and then you throw a shoe at his head because he is rejecting you(yesterday he abused you!), and you re ugly and disgusting and a "bitch" for wanting anything. you dont even deserve love and passion....then you break up, ignore him. smoke pot to manage doing anything. its true and the fact that it was the last night we had before he left for a long time made it even worse.
maybe tomorrow everything will turn out lovely ??


you know you re bpd when theres a big event in your city and people from your highschool are coming that treated you like you had lepra,and it makes your day, to be cruel to them (by forgetting their names, ignoring them,wanting to invite them to a drink and then "forget" to order, and just order a drink for yourself and say "sorry" like you didnt mean it and leave the place- or push them by accident- after you gave them a deadly stare.. stuff like that)..little things that would make grumpy cat smile!

When someone asks you if you want to drink some "homemade booze" and this actually sounds like a good idea at the time.

When you notice that the other person is going awfully light on the "homemade booze" and you're chugging it like its the most delicious $#%^ on the planet.

When you wake up in your own vomit and think "hmmm....which is worse, vomit or piss?"

When you wake up and think...well, I didn't sleep for 24hrs. so, I know I have been worse.

When you know this cycle is probably going to repeat all throughout your life because you are crazy dumb....but not because you are an alcoholic. (no offense to anyone else - this is how I see myself, mostly)

You know you're BPD when... you tell your BF that loves you dearly that he should buzz off and then you get no word from him every again... and you are totally surprised!

You know you're BPD when... you are always searching for what you are truly best at and it turns out to be getting your current BF to dump you and get back together with their ex! (I'm a walking talking relationship repairer).

You know you're BPD when... you blow through your data plan and have to stop everything to get more for your cell in case your SO is trying to reach you and then its near the end of the night before you blast off a rage text for not getting any word from him only to find out the data plan extension isn't turned on and you have 4 missed texts from him.