You KNOW You're BPD When...

You know you're BPD when you are triggered by something as mundane as a grilled cheese sandwich because it reminds you of something that happened when you were 5. And you spend the rest of the day fighting off traumatic memories and being practically unable to function.

Your favorite teacher casually compliments another student’s work in class, and you feel so rejected and worthless you schedule a GED appointment so you can drop out of high school :/

angelinbluejeans wrote:

Idiomatic expression doesnt make sense always when translated. Lets say you are TOO awesome.

I am from and living in North America (I am vague only as I do not trust others).

So how I am supposed to fly to you?

'You dont know your bpd when...you think your so called friends are conspiring against you, so you take kickboxing classes, start working out and train ever day for 2 months...whilst practising what you going to say to them in the mirror....you shave you head so you look scary.... you finally get the balls up to confront them.....you burst out the door at your home, run for 2km to a house they all hang out at, kick the door in and knowones there... ...you then sit down on the step out the front and start getting real neurotic and decide that theres something really wrong with your brain......you start walking home and on the way, you see 2 of your mates at the fast food joint.... they tell you that they seen you run by and looked like you were on a mission to kill someone......you explain that you think everyones been running you down behind your back and conspiring against you......they tell you that, everyones worried about you and they have been talking about you....and that they noticed a huge change in your personality and they think you should talk to a doctor about it.....you then go home; 4hrs later your parents find you out the back blind drunk covered in cigarette burns, crying........they have you commited....then you know you bpd....

You get pissed off how you're the one who always has to start the conversation

You have to ASK her to pay more attention to and you feel needy because you know you are

You can masturbate to your crush 3-5 times a day and it can still be pretty intense

You recently had a nightmare which ended up with your crush throwing away your friendship as she and the very man/person who you knew liked her end up holding hands as they fall in love and cuddle while you stand off in the distance defeated

You constantly stress about her falling in love with somebody else

When you think about her for a large portion of the day and have only known her for 3-4 months

Your depression's gotten to the worst it's ever been since meeting her

You constantly take a look at her fine piece of ass when she sits next to you in science

You love it when you bump shoulders in the hallway on the way to lunch as you just want take hold of them and just meet those luscious lips...

You're thinking about ignoring her to hopefully incite the action that she'll want to know why you haven't been talking to her so she fights to stay friends to see if she cares about you

She's the only friend you have at school

She's the only person you've ever opened up to

You just want to cuddle with her but it's too much of a request

You realize just how ######6 annoying normal people can be

You just don't ######6 understand how normal people don't see the things you do with your BPD when it feels so logistical to you

When somebody says they love you more you laugh your ass off

You check your email 10 times a day, only to find that nobody cares enough to send anything to you.

TW
... The only time you remember of being happy was when you tried suicide with antidepressants.
... The only time you feel comfortable with yourself is through specific body delusions like when your hands are getting smaller (I wonder why).
... What makes you hope today is going to be a good day is when you have nothing to do or no one to talk because like this you finally won't feel anxious.
... Your therapist says you're managing your symptoms well, she says things like you're strong and are being able to recover well, and your reaction is trying to kill yourself.
... You think you are a horrible and weak person that have no reason to feel bad about anything that happened in your life because it's all #######4 and you deserve worse, so you give yourself the worse, when you're not self-indulgent to get rid of your "imaginary pain".
... You feel guilty about feeling whatever you're feeling.
... You avoid talking to people so you won't be triggered.
... You hope no one question why you behaved in some way because you also have no idea why.

I love this. I think that the punch line of a funny joke or story is that little moment when you are forced to look at things from a new perspective. It's so helpful for me to keep perspective so I don't get overwhelmed with negative thinking.

...You know you're BPD when you can't stop judging the world for the 5 o'clock news

...when you motivate yourself with self destructive behaviors. "If I wake up early, I can get drunk before work."

...when everything people do is a sign that they are all against you. Even when you know it probably has nothing to do with you, it still feels that way. Someone else has a problem? Still, somehow, they are trying to undermine you... by... taking away from others who could have helped you.

...when one person, who doesn't even know you makes some rude remark, and that reminds you how everyone hates you. Everyone.

Rinkaku wrote:TW
... You think you are a horrible and weak person that have no reason to feel bad about anything that happened in your life because it's all #######4 and you deserve worse, so you give yourself the worse, when you're not self-indulgent to get rid of your "imaginary pain".
... You feel guilty about feeling whatever you're feeling.
... You avoid talking to people so you won't be triggered.
... You hope no one question why you behaved in some way because you also have no idea why.

YES! You are reading my mind. I feel guilty for any negative feeling I have.

letha wrote:
...when one person, who doesn't even know you makes some rude remark, and that reminds you how everyone hates you. Everyone.

THIS! When I see my facebook friend number has gone down by 1 I assume everyone hates me and is about to abandon me.