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Boredom/Frustration

Postby raptureblues » Sun Jul 08, 2018 11:02 pm

I don't know how much this is a BPD-related thing but I keep finding myself completely unable to have an interest in anything, and the boredom is making me frustrated to the point of being overwhelmingly angry. I keep switching between idle distractions that don't engage me enough to be properly distracted, and I get more and more frustrated at how bored I feel, which makes it even harder to focus and stay engaged. I end up feeling so angry that I want to rip my own skin off or scream until my throat gives out and it's unbearable.

I keep switching between this and being so intensely engaged with something that I can't do anything else. Can't sleep or eat or move, I can only focus on this one task until I fall apart. I also keep switching between those two states and intense dissociation, and it's driving me insane.
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Re: Boredom/Frustration

Postby sakura1 » Mon Jul 09, 2018 10:02 am

i relate a little,i am not angry but sad because of it,it makes me feel that is not worth living sometimes.i feel unable to have an interest in anything.
i guess i like watching movies and music . And if i ever find something that i like more ,it becomes so precious that i can't think of anything else/exactly because there isn't anything else that makes me feel like this. but at the moment i don't have something.
if you don't feel passionate about something,what is the point waking up into a painful nothing everyday for so long.when you feel bad you are holding on ,it makes me wonder what am i holding on for,is it worth it.are small things worth it.for how long.
i don't feel angry more like a painful nothing,i can be angry for a while but i don't see the point in being angry either lol and just go back to feeling nothing
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Re: Boredom/Frustration

Postby pamelaperejil » Sat Jul 14, 2018 1:51 am

Are you more likely to get bored with people or things? Are you more likely to become obsessively interested in people or things?
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Re: Boredom/Frustration

Postby cirkusrat » Sat Jul 14, 2018 10:51 am

I certainly can relate to the feeling of boredom. Personally, I often think of the boredom as a form of emptiness or lack of meaning/purpose. Suddenly, it's like nothing really matters anymore, nothing seems interesting, etc. I think it's a terrible feeling and it just hits so hard all of a sudden. That's probably why I sometimes consider them a part of my BPD mood swings.
I have a few thing I like to do in a day, at the moment these include reading, solving crosswords, listening to the radio/songs I like, and doing exercise, currently the latter consists of swimming in the local indoor pool and walking. So far, swimming hasn't become boring yet (maybe because I just started doing it this week :lol: ), but it's physically challenging so of course it affords some self-motivation. So let's just take the crosswords as an example, I might suddenly find myself wondering, "why am I doing this, it's boring right?". And then I'm stuck in that painful situation of having to come up with something else to do - which isn't just laying down to sleep and make time pass without having to think or feel anything (though this is often my go-to solution :( )
Also, I often think of new hobbies I'd like to engage in or things I should be doing the next day, errands I should be running etc., but somehow I often fail doing these...
In your post, you describe getting so caught up in certain activities that you can't do anything else, until they become boring. May I ask what these activities consisted of?
Have you ever thought of making a daily plan for yourself? I often think of this myself, you know, making a plan for each day by writing down what to do, when etc., so I have a structure to follow and sort of like a "security net" that can catch me once everything turns boring and grey and meaningless.
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