Advice needed please

Ive recently had a relationship breakdown and concluded that my ex has NPD....but in researching that I'm pretty sure I may have BPD. I've done some online tests etc which confirm I may be an acting in type, guessing a waif? I am actually booked in for counselling in the near future for the trauma I experienced from that relationship (the only relationship I have ever had) but I just feel like my whole world has been turned upside down and I feel so empty and dead inside. I am also trying to get my whole head around this NPD/BPD thing plus experiencing a lot of shame knowing that we have successfully destroyed each other and now we are both in pain and alone. I don't even know where to start to get over this.

Hi Gigihabib
Firstly "you have already started" Seeking counselling and getting an appointment,
so well done for that step.

Try not to self diagnose its really not good. yes online test can be useful to get the motivation to seek help but don't "label" you both. wait and see what therapist says

I know its hard (been there myself)
But just take care of your self for now, your going to feel a lot of emotions right now and its not fun, but your not alone ..

Many users here use this thread daily "how you feel this moment"
borderline-personality/topic121574.html
kind of helps to share how we feel and knowing there's always someone there helps a lot