The Positive

blackcat14 wrote:the positive of being a rambling BPD?

The heights. The ability to inflame hearts and minds on a good day/moment with an unquievering, childlike, spacey enthusiasm.

The seduction. The ability to incarnate just about anybody's desires and make them happen (even if only for a very short time )

A rock&roll heart. Fearless and anxious to follow its desires. Ok, not always a good idea, but how sweet at times.

I feel you on these ones. My highs are so high. The euphoria when I feel wanted or loved or cared for or needed is so absolutely, mind blowingly awesome! When things are going right, they go so right. Everything is perfect and my head is firmly in the cloud. This mixes with the seduction aspect for me. Knowing how to make someone feel amazing sexually makes me feel amazing. I love being able to know and fulfill every desire of another person. I get to play god for a moment and be their everything- the bringer of joy and inexhaustible pleasure.

With impulsivity (or a rock n' roll heart) I've had some both awful and amazing experiences. I have no fear when it comes to my own safety and do crazy things purely for the pleasure and fun I seek in them. The crazy, irresponsible trips in the middle of crowded public places. Taking any drug anyone ever offered and experiencing so many of the different kinds of highs and mental states that the mind has to offer. Having crazy kinky sex with multiple partners in all the different scenarios you can dream up. Having fantasies fulfilled in seedy clubs with sketchy people. It's fantastic in the moment but a bit frightening in retrospect. But it also brings about a lot of stories. People tell me I should blog about my experiences with sex and drugs and the stupid $hit I've done for love, but honestly I just like having the stories I bring out at parties for shock value and don't really feel good about all the crazy $hit I've done as a whole.

I am able to feel the emotions of a poet. My emotions, my feelings, run deep.

I love deeper than nons.

I think the feeling of childlike awe I get when I see something wondrous in nature has to be one of the most positive things in my life. The memories of fishing and camping. Catching fireflies, watching thunderstorms, and playing hide and go seek in the dark were a whole lot of fun to. I love adventure and experiencing new things and places. These are all things fill me with happiness and warmth.

I won a dry suit worth $1400 at a raffle recently. It is something I needed, and had no expectation of winning. So that's a good memory.

ducttapefreak324 wrote:I think the feeling of childlike awe I get when I see something wondrous in nature has to be one of the most positive things in my life. The memories of fishing and camping. Catching fireflies, watching thunderstorms

Very pretty!
I love that ability of mine. In nature and in other things.

What A Wonderful World

I unintentionally made fun of my sister applying makeup, in return, she chased me around the house set on applying makeup on me. She eventually caught me, pinned me with her arms and legs, but instead of being mean she just kissed me and let go.

I have lots of good memories before the age of 10. I loved to roller skate and swim.

who38 wrote:I have lots of good memories before the age of 10. I loved to roller skate and swim.

Now I gonna give you wonderful memories.

Why? Do you like to roller skate too?

who38 wrote:Why? Do you like to roller skate too?

With you?