I have wished many times that we can be normal again. I would love to play poker with my buddies. I would love to bet a few buck on a game. I would love to visit a casino again. However, I recognize that those are the thoughts of this addiction trying to feed itself.
If we look at it in a different way, can an alcoholic take the occasionally drink with their friends? I highly doubt it, even through they would love to. How about taking it another step further. Do you think that a drug addict can take some recreational drugs once in awhile? Goodness No! But the thing is, our brains are hardwired the same way. It is the connection to dopamine that causes our addition. Even though gambling seems much less harmless compared to drugs, the cycle of withdrawal and the cravings are the same.
Take this setback as a lesson to help improve your recovery. Self-exclude again and hopefully when that exclusion period approaches, take precautions and prepare for it. I remember when my self-exclusion lapsed, I reactivated my account just so that I could exclude again.

Thanks you for mentioning your blog in the Gambling forum. This is an area (blogs) that I frequent less, but I love hearing how people are doing and what they are thinking. I am happy to hear that your bank statement is looking happier. Money is often one of fastest areas that we see improvement. In our cycle we have 0 or negative numbers, however once we stop, we actually have money! (Even though it might be only a little). Keep up the great work!

I appreciate cracking down on them so well. I wish the staff on other sites would actively take measures to make their places for survivors of sex abuse. Thank you, as always, for all you do.

Chels91 wrote:I can say I still haven't had that problem here yet. By this point, I'm a bit surprised that I haven't considering how frequent they always tend to be. You'd think there would be more here!

There's not more here because this is what I do to them the moment I get even a whiff of 'here for the faps':


There are venues for fappery, this ain't it. Nothing- and I do mean, nothing- pisses this admin off quicker than someone going after folks in Sexual Abuse or Sexual Addiction.

And, if one slips by my guard, all you have to do is report the PM, and then I will take a look, and I will judge for myself. And if they're found wanting, then they be gone-gone.

Glad you could get the one you've already had. I don't know about other people, and I've never done therapy, but I think I would super hate having to open up to a stranger all over again, after having managed to make the plunge the first time.