I thought it was about time I updated this. Alby and Adrophenia integrated with Kitt forming Ellsya. -Ellysa

Name: Ellysa
Age: 19-21
Gender: Female
Orientation: Homosexual
Alter/Host: Host
Alter Type: Host, ANP, and Main Alter
Mental Issues: DID, Psychosis, Schizo-affective Disorder, Major affective disorder, Depression, cutting, Anxiety
Hobby: Writing

Name: Lea
Age: 18
Gender: Female
Orientation: Heterosexual
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: Gatekeeper, Caretaker Alter, Secret Keeper Alter, and Teen Alter
Mental Issues: PTSD, Cutting
Hoby: Drawing

Name: Sarah
Age: 9-15
Gender: Female
Orientation: Unknown
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: Slider Alter, Middle Alter/Teen Alter, and Emotional Part & ANP mixture
Mental Issues: Cutting
Hobby: Coloring

Name: Lauren Jones
Age: 21
Gender: Female
Orientation: Homosexual
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: Protector, Fight Alter, Fictive, and Adult Alter
Mental Issues: PTSD, Anorexic, Bulimic
Hobby: COmputers

Name: Christopher Novec
Age: 63
Gender: Male
Orientation: Homosexual
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: Different Gender Alter, Otherkin (Vampire), Adult Alter, Rage Alter, and Fictive
Mental Issues: PTSD, cutting, sociopath
Hobby: Unknown

Name: Scott O. Smitten
Age: 15
Gender: Male
Orientation: Homosexual
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: Different Gender Alter, Otherkin (Wizard), Teen Alter and Fictive
Mental Issues: ADHD, LD's (Such as dyslexia, and dyscalculia)
Hobby: Unknown

Name: Piper Dollander
Age: 22
Gender: Female
Orientation: Homosexual
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: Protector, Gatekeeper, Fight Alter, Fictive, and Adult Alter
Mental Issues: ADHD, PTSD
Hobby: Logic puzzles

Name: Wendy
Age: 14
Gender: Female
Orientation: Straight
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: ab*ser Alter, Emotional Part, Teen Alter, and s*xual Alter
Mental Issues: Schizophrenia, Schizo affective Disorder, Psychosis, Anxiety, Depression, cutting
Hobby: Puzzles

Name: Posey/Safe Place
Age: Unknown (But is a teenager)
Gender: Female
Orientation: Unknown
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: Internal Therapist, Organizer
Mental Issues: None
Hobby: Poetry

Soooooooo, I didn't get accepted into college yesterday, so I'll have to start in the fall. Which I'm okay with now, but it was very disappointing at the time. I can't seem to sleep well anymore. *Sighs* I think my body's giving up on me.

Anyhow, let's get to the reason for this post, shall we?

Today's topic is about supporters. There's a poll attached to it to just get a random estimate of about how many people usually have on their support team. But before you vote, let me define what I consider a supporter.

A supporter, by my definition, is someone who will be there for you no matter what happens. Now, don't get me wrong, there are going to be times where you'll do something wrong and your supporter will point it out and make an argument of what you should've done, but that's just being a good supporter. Even though you did something wrong, they're not sending you away, and they're not leaving your side.

A supporter can be someone paid to listen and help you, although, a REAL supporter doesn't want your money in order to help you. They want to help you because they care.

For me, I say that I have about 1 REAL supporter. It's rather sad.... Although I have like 6 other people who come talk to me to "help" me, they get paid to do it and so it doesn't feel real. Then I have my mom, my two sisters, and my grandmother, who are supposed to be supporters, but they're not. My mom doesn't want to here it if I'm not doing well everyday. My younger sister is too caught up with boys to listen. My older sister is too caught up with P, my nephew, in order to listen to me. And my grandmother just hates me. Which leaves only my friends as supporters who don't get paid to let me vent. But I only have on true friend......

But enough about me and my life. What about all of you? Do you have supporters in your life? REAL supporters? Or are you like me, who really only ever has one person to go to? Vote in the poll or leave comments. Thanks.
-Kitt

When your words mean nothing, I say la la la.

How is one supposed to cope when everyone around that person seems to be covering their ears like a kid. They block out everything, except what they want to hear.

Mom: "How was your day?"

Daughter: "Horrible."

Mom: "Sorry, I didn't hear you?"

Daughter: "Great...."

Mom: "That's what I thought you said."

UUUUUGGGHHH!!!!! Shut up! Everyone! You're so busy with your lives to even notice other people! Why are we excluded?!

Just to say, this conversation didn't go on today, but it might as well have. No one listens to me. No one..... My sister ignores me, my own mother doesn't want to talk to me, my grandmother hates me! Can I get no sympathy?!

No, I'm not really looking for attention or sympathy, that's an over exaggeration. But the point is. People around me don't want to hear I'm not okay unless they're getting paid to hear me talk. Then it's just annoying because the only thing those people suggest is hospitalization.

I don't need a freaking hospital! What I need is someone to listen to me for once! Someone who will just let me rant out my problems and just LISTENS!!!!
-Kitt

So I know I've posted this twice already, but I'm going to post it a third time because I'm proud of my alters and I want everyone to read this. So her we go.

ALTERS ARE REAL!

I want everyone to understand that much. If you get nothing else out of what I'm writing, please remember that alters are real people and feel like real people.

Everyone always want to focus so much attention on the host/hostess, that they forget that the host/hostess is nothing more than an alter themselves. That's right, they're just alters that are out the most. Why should we treat them any differently because they have the same name as the one they were born with? So?

This is why I call myself Kitt in the system. I don't want to identify with the body's name anymore. The body's name is Kailyn. But Kailyn is not me. I am Kitt. I am a piece of Kailyn, just as the other ten people are too. All 11 of us make Kailyn. NOT just me.

It's really been hurting the alters for so long to have the main focus on me and I've been too selfishly absorbed in myself to see that, but in my talk today with one of my case workers, I nearly cried because everything clicked into place.

The case worker said, "I want to focus on you, Kali, not your alters."

That's when it clicked. I sat there a moment feeling the hurt and rejection from the other alters co-con at the time and I finally understood. So I looked back and told her that it really hurt for her to say that. And that when an alter calls on the phone to talk to someone because they're having a problem and they get pushed aside because the case manager doesn't want to deal with them, it hurts like Hell. It really does hurt them. Because why should I get my need met when they're not.

I think I finally understand why they act out, why they cry randomly, and why they look at me accusingly and sadly when I ask for help from them.

ALTER ARE REAL!

Yeah, it took me two years to figure this out, but at least I have. The pain they took on, was real. It no wonder they have mental disorders too. They've gone through so much pain in their lives to actually cope with it, yet NO ONE wants to help them. It's all about the host. If the host is having a problem, everyone drops what they're doing to help them, but when I say an alter's having a problem, people look at me and say "I'm sure they'll get through it", as if that's good enough.

NO!

It has to stop here. I am an alter. I am an alter that is out the most but, I am an alter too. Meaning, if you want to help me, you need to help ALL of me, not just Kitt, not just Lauren, not just Lea, ALL of us. I don't want help from anyone who can't see that every single part in this system has to be working for the body to be okay.

So today, I'm making a decision.....

There is no more host in my system. I resign as the host. I want everyone to be treated as the equal parts of Kailyn they really are. And for those who read all this, thank you for your time. Thank you for understanding. Thank you for not overlooking this because it was "too long" or something. Just thank you.
-Kitt

So this is me and my alters, a break down on all of us. -Kitt

Name: Kitt
Age: 19
Gender: Female
Orientation: Homosexual
Alter/Host: Host
Alter Type: Host, ANP, and Main Alter
Mental Issues: DID, Psychosis, Schizoaffective Disorder, Major affective disorder, Depression, cutting, Anxiety

Name: Lea
Age: 18
Gender: Female
Orientation: Homosexual
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: Gatekeeper, Caretaker Alter, Secret Keeper Alter, and Teen Alter
Mental Issues: PTSD, Cutting

Name: Sarah
Age: 9-15
Gender: Female
Orientation: Unknown
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: Slider Alter, Middle Alter/Teen Alter, and Emotional Part & ANP mixture
Mental Issues: Cutting

Name: Lauren Jones
Age: 21
Gender: Female
Orientation: Homosexual
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: Protector, Fight Alter, Fictive, and Adult Alter
Mental Issues: PTSD, Anorexic, Bulimic

Name: Christopher Novec
Age: 63
Gender: Male
Orientation: Homosexual
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: Different Gender Alter, Otherkin (Vampire), Adult Alter, Rage Alter, and Fictive
Mental Issues: PTSD, cutting, sociopathic

Name: Scott O. Smitten
Age: 15
Gender: Male
Orientation: Homosexual
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: Different Gender Alter, Otherkin (Wizard), Teen Alter and Fictive
Mental Issues: ADHD, LD's (Such as dyslexia, and dyscalculia)

Name: Alby
Age: 8
Gender: Female
Orientation: Unknown
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: Otherkin (Cat/human), and Little Alter
Mental Issues: None

Name: Piper Dollander
Age: 22
Gender: Female
Orientation: Homosexual
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: Protector, Gatekeeper, Fight Alter, Fictive, and Adult Alter
Mental Issues: ADHD, PTSD

Name: Wendy
Age: 14
Gender: Female
Orientation: Straight
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: ab*ser Alter, Emotional Part, Teen Alter, and s*xual Alter
Mental Issues: Schizophrenia, Schizoaffective Disorder, Psychosis, Anxiety, Depression, cutting

Name: Posey/Safe Place
Age: Unknown (But is a teenager)
Gender: Female
Orientation: Unknown
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: Internal Therapist, Organizer
Mental Issues: None

Name: Adrophenia
Age: 34
Gender: Female
Orientation: Straight
Alter/Host: Alter
Alter Type: Adult Alter, Otherkin (Goddess of Giauidia)
Mental Issues: Cutting