All of a sudden out of the blue I feel incredibly anxious and frightened about my ex boyfriend.
I am psychic. I can pick up on things. But I don't know whether what I am feeling is real or whether it is just pure, random anxiety.
I feel as though something is very very wrong with him. And I am sat here feeling physically sick because of it.
Maybe I'm just reexperiemcing the feelings of fear I often had when I was with him.
It feels like that. It feels how I used to feel when I could sense something bad coming. When I could sense he was going to hurt me, or when I had terrible anxiety about someone killing me or doing something terrible to me.
I feel like he's mad. What if he does something? What if he's planning some way of hurting me?
I want to go back to the police but they were so awful with me.
I don't want to go through any of that again.
I think I should go and seek advice. But I don't want to cause I don't want to talk about it.
Please don't let me be developing PTSD. I can't.
I won't be. This is just random anxiety or picking up on his feelings.
I need to go and speak to someone about this.
I HAVE to.
I have to go seek advice on whether to press charges for all the other awful $#%^. But I know deep down it's not going to amount to anything.
But I want to do it anyway. To prove to myself that I can stand up for what's right despite how bad all the services that were supposed to protect me have treated me.
No matter what the outcome.
I might do it.
But then why, I'd rather forget about it and move on with my life than give him any more attention or thought. I feel as though any time I think of him it's a waste, I already wasted too much time on him I don't want to waste anymore. The best thing I can do is move on, which I have been doing.
But I still feel this is unfinished in my mind. And I'm scared he is going to retaliate in some way.
I feel as though he is going to try and get me into trouble and I don't know what for.
Or he's plotting something evil.
I hope I'm wrong.
I hate the fact he can do this to me. I never even think of him. And then he pops into my mind.
Haunting me. Asshole.
I need to talk to someone about this clearly.