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by **quietgirl2538** on Mon Aug 19, 2019 12:57 pm

My life feels awesome! Woke up to a wonderful morning. Am having my first cup of coffee, and enjoying the grand feeling that life is where it should be at . That I am not afraid, that I am alive and well. Bipolar dip episode came the other day. What a horrible feeling of wanting to end my life as we know it. Disappeared after a good 3 days, then it went up almost like a hypomanic episode. I may be hypomanic right now...Hard to decipher at times. Until after the fact.

Life truly is wonderful in many, many ways is my 'live by the moment' mentality. Love my job, my co-workers, love modding, and all that brings me so much happiness and joy in life. Family, friends, I think I feel like I love the entire world right now.

Have a great day to you who may be reading this. :wink:

by **quietgirl2538** on Mon Jul 22, 2019 11:44 am

Life goes on...

Yes it does. I've been praying and I feel my prayer has been answered in a very simple way. No expectations and that is such a rewarding feeling to just let things be.

I got a new job and I really like it. I drive back and forth something like 45 minutes, but it's so relaxing to decompress before I make it home.

Bipolar has been stable and I'm glad for that. I have needed to take a diazepam (valium) once to take the edge off my nerves at my new job. It really helped to slow down my brain and that terrible feeling of extreme anxiety. If I want to write some more I'll make another entry today. For now that's it on me and I want to be able to remember this as I write here. :wink:

by **quietgirl2538** on Thu Jul 04, 2019 1:03 pm

So, now we're in July. A lot, and I mean, A LOT has happened all this time! Some good, some not so good. Mostly 'not so good'. I feel a bit sad. I hope the rest of this year, 2019, goes much better than it has so far. There were so many ups and downs. I almost felt I couldn't deal with it, at times. Too much to deal with, I felt surely being dead were better than living through so much pain. But here I am, feeling better, and I think it can only get better from now on. (I hope so).

Bipolar is stable. I'm glad. Because it's not like I need something else to deal with right now. I'm just picking myself up from so much drama filled with pain, that I just don't need another thing to hinder me from enjoying my life.

I will post more regularly. Maybe on some days I will post more than I ever have before, because I enjoy writing things out. It helps me 'unload' and get some things off my chest. I feel better afterwards.

by **quietgirl2538** on Wed Jun 12, 2019 12:58 pm

I am so happy. For me. For others in my life. It's contagious, this happiness.

Hope others here are having a good day. I know my blog isn't exactly interesting, but I enjoy using it like a diary. :wink:

--quietgirl

by **quietgirl2538** on Sat May 11, 2019 1:44 pm

I am very lucky, blessed, whatever you may want to call it. I feel such grand hope for me. I see only the positive. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and it shines every more brightly each new day. My illness of bipolar I is completely stable for years now. I have so much to look forward to and I couldn't be happier. I could die today or tomorrow and I have lived a wonderful life! :wink:

quietgirl

Awesome!!!

Prayer answered

Drama filled with pain

Using my blog as a sort of diary

So much hope!

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