I was seized by a state of madness called love. I was obsessed. Had to be with him. In the end he drove me crazy, then left me because I was crazy. That is how I found out the fractured nature of myself. I always sensed that I wasn't alone, but I didn't [i]know.[/i] This relationship caused the alters to emerge and identify themselves. Shield is angry and attacking. Little is clinging and crying. I'm like wtf? I'm so in love... that was dumb.

A year after he left I was still obsessed, loving and hating at the same time. So I asked myself why? I asked Shield why she still wants to talk to this man, since he is not the cause of our pain. Shield always comes out in the morning. I hate the morning. So when she was out one morning, she heard the question I had asked the night before. Shield could feel Little's crying, and she was pissed. This time she was not mad at my ex but at Mom. It cured my obsession with him.

After an argument with my friend, I was feeling crummy and angry. But I was not mad at my friend anymore. I felt the presence of Shield and asked, "Shield is that you?" She said yes and explained that she was connected to Little and had always been connected to Little. Little is in terrible pain, and that is why Shield is so angry like a wounded animal. Prior to this revelation, Shield had no memories beyond the triggers that brought her out front. She is now Shield/Sentinel.