-I was pity-invited to spend NYE w/ my sister and her friends. I didn't want to go but she kept asking so I agreed to.
-humiliated myself in front of my sister's friends - pathetic attempts to socialize - interjecting myself repeatedly into conversations I'm not sure I was even supposed to be a part of, with stupid comments just to not be silent and weird the whole time. It's not even like I had anything in common with them, I don't even know them. Looking back now, I realize I shouldn't have been there - just cause I don't have any friends of my own doesn't entitle me to intrude on other people's.
-It got really uncomfortable when they all started talking about their degrees and jobs, and I couldn't say anything cause I'm a socially inept, unemployed college dropout.
-This is why I shouldn't be allowed talk to people/socialize. I completely embarrassed myself and probably ruined their night. 2 of them left early, I think it might have been b/c of me. I'm not really close with my sister at all, so she hasn't said anything about it to me yet, I don't know, maybe she's too polite to. If my youngest sister were here I'd definitely have been yelled at and made fun of.
-I ended up going to bed around 2. fell asleep around 6am, woke up at 11. Spent today going over last night in my head, should have just stayed in my room or gone out alone or something, I don't know.