I seriously don't understand what's wrong with me. I've had a rough life, yeah, but I've always managed to put a smile on and tell myself there will be better days, that there's hope. I had sooo much self control, and my anger and saddness was in check 100%. Everything was good. But now, I feel myself just hating everything, even myself. Nothing makes me happy, nothing makes me feel hopeful. I dunno how to fix this, cause idunno what changed it. I just feel so miserable all the time, and it's much more than depression.. i just feel so #######5 and useless. I always have this yucky feeling in my stomach and chest, like guilt and hurt and paranoia. It never goes away, and a few times this past week, I've woken up in the morning feeling completely sick to my stomach. I'm so unhappy, it's making me sick to my stomach. I don't understand... how could I possibly feel sooo horrible and not have a single clue as to why?! Can someone help me figure out what this is, and how I can go back to living a normal, happy, life.