i feel like i will never get anywhere in life except go in and out of prison, hospital, homelessness or temporary accommodation

im in hospital until i get somewhere to live and at this point in time it feels like i will never get anywhere in life never get a job, have a family, more friends (as i have said in other blogs so i wont go more into it)

i get to the point were im doing well then smack i have another episode and have to start over again and again it feels never ending cycle

i will get into this place they want me to go everything will go well for sometime then all hell will break lose again like it always dose ill get kicked out end up in prison or hospital with nowhere to go (family wont have me not even for a few days) i feel abandoned by them when i need them the most

last time i had nowhere on the street my family abandoned me and wouldn't let me stay with them for even a few days so i ended up in prison its a yo-yo and im sick of this

i hope it is different this time and i can make something of my life