My pdoc is a great guy. he helped me out when I was really bad and has been there for all the problems and ups and downs of the last DECADE, but he has one thing he does that annoys me. When i try to talk about how stressed I am feeling about something he starts into a speech about how stress is a perceptual thing and that if i look at anything that is making me feel that way as little pieces I won't feel like that. Unfortunately I really have a hard time doing that and it just ends up aggrevating me, like he is belittling how I am feeling at that moment making me feel more STRESSED. I know he is trying to help, I just have trouble seeing it that way at the time.

thanks
Javert

Hi anyone who actually reads this,

The past few days I have been doing much better. I still have problems at work and with debt, but they don't seem as crushing as they were. The abilify in conjunction with my other meds seems to be be working wonders. I dread the new year however because my deductible will need to be paid again and its back to paying 700 dollars a month for my drugs. If the other health plan was half a good as the one I take I would take it just so I would only have to pay 240 dollars a month for drugs, but i digress.

I have been moving forward in my life as well. I just had an offer accepted on a condo I was trying to buy (more debt i know, but atleast I will feel more constructive about it), Its a nice place in a good neighborhood, not far from where I work.

I don't have much else to say,
Have a good day

Hi everyone,

I have been on AMbilify for two weeks, slowly ramping up the dosage, and honestly I don't think its worth the 500 dollars a month that its going to cost me.

I feel like I am on edge. I am clinching my jaw so much it aches. I am sleeping less than I was which is both good and bad. I was sleeping to much, but now I am waking up so often that it seems like I am not getting any rest at all.

Work is going badly as well. I have missed a lot of it this year between problems with my bipolar and problems with my father being sick. It seems a day doesn't go by without my supervisor needing to "talk" to me about something. I try my best but it seems like I am just failing. I am looking for a new job. I need to get off of third shift, i think its making my problems worse.

I wish I was out of debt, then i could take a less stressful (less well-paying) job and be happy, or at least happier.

Well i have been rambling too much, I will leave off here.

New blogger here.

I had a few high days a couple of weeks ago, but that made the crash that came after so much worse. I missed work and went to see my doctor about the problems I was having. He decided to change my meds removing risperadal and adding ambilify.

Unfortunately since the change I have been horribly sick, and about the only i can safely consume is water. I am worried its the new meds, but I am going to bite the bullet for a few more days hoping it gets better.

Thats all