Hello...this is my first ever post to this site or any site for that matter. I have recently been drifting on a path that I know far too much but it still surprises. I always had a different kinda mind. When I was young I thought that I looked different through the eyes of other ppl..like what I saw in the mirror was different from what you would see if u looked at me. Random, I even thought that people talking to me while I ate cereal made it soggy. Like their breath would make it that way, so I guarded it with my hands over my bowl between every bite. Both fast forward ahead. I was bullied by my brothers, verbally mostly. And my parents divorced before my childhood began realy. I think I was 5, or kindergarden. However old u are then, that's it. I'm not too good with years and dates from my past. But I digress, I was bullied but as a child before things fell apart I was very considerate and calculated.. I was very passionate and weird, silly moreso...so when I moved with my dad and my new family my good things were used against me. I was bullied for being sweet rather than a corny tool. I was no sucker tho. Anyway for years, from 3rd til 10th grade I was bullied in my own home.. my step mom would have my dad punish me for no reason which eventually left me feeling alone...so I became a monster..people that bullied believed themselves to be bad, but I knew I was badder from all my pain that I sustained and also consumed..so I flipped a switch and become nuts...I would make ppl feel horrible and be satisfied..

Welcome to the forum, iamhim We have a small but lovely schizotypal-personality/ community here. Mostly we talk to each other through the forums. Because it's very hard to keep track of conversations in other people's blogs. You'd be very welcome to say hello there too! You don't need an official Dx or to tick all the "symptoms" boxes.

Thanks for commenting i was believing no1 could see my post or something smh...i will definately come here to talk to others like urslef and i...its wierd speaking in something so vivid in my head...but regular ppl know nothing, cant even imagine...they think i lie, thanks again to commenting