I've been living in a state of pure consciousness my whole life. The only emotions I truly feel are loneliness and and happiness but 99% of the time I don't feel, think or opinion-ate anything.

Why the ###$ am I the only one who can't (couldn't) feel that actually wants to learn what emotions are like. The ###$ is an ego as well, it seems stupid.

I have a house inside my head, I open the door and find a room full of orbs, where I lock away feelings and contain them.

I just added hate because it's starting to overwhelm me, like blackness everywhere, and I'll put bloodlust in there because it's shiny and pretty.

It also has power and corruption, the others are long gone and I can't remember them.

I think I might add loneliness to the collection. I hate the feeling.

I'm still lacking vital chemicals that I will acquire someday, that will completely allow me to humanize myself and others. Not that I will ever believe anyone has any real value. My empathy is still lacking in a lot of respects, mainly experience. I've managed to induce and learn quite a few emotions and feel what they are like. Sympathy was the best feeling, better than love to me. But they are momentary feelings mostly.

My empathy now has color.