var title = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum flukeekulf\'s Blog Feed'; var url = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/flukeekulf/index.html'; var site_url = 'https://www.psychforums.com'; var site_desc = 'Psychology and Mental Health Forum'; var time = 'Mon, 14 Jul 2025 08:19:34 -0400'; var data = new Array(); data[0] = new Array(); data[0]['title'] = 'Nirvana?'; data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/flukeekulf/nirvana%CA%94_b-9380.html'; data[0]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/flukeekulf/nirvana%CA%94_b-9380.html'; data[0]['username'] = 'flukeekulf'; data[0]['blog_id'] = '9380'; data[0]['blog_message'] = 'I've been living in a state of pure consciousness my whole life. The only emotions I truly feel are loneliness and and happiness but 99% of the time I don't feel, think or opinion-ate anything.'; data[0]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 19 Dec 2015 19:21:15 -0500'; data[1] = new Array(); data[1]['title'] = 'Dear world'; data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/flukeekulf/dear_world_b-9362.html'; data[1]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/flukeekulf/dear_world_b-9362.html'; data[1]['username'] = 'flukeekulf'; data[1]['blog_id'] = '9362'; data[1]['blog_message'] = 'Why the ###$ am I the only one who can't (couldn't) feel that actually wants to learn what emotions are like. The ###$ is an ego as well, it seems stupid.'; data[1]['blog_time'] = 'Tue, 15 Dec 2015 01:55:01 -0500'; data[2] = new Array(); data[2]['title'] = '.........'; data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/flukeekulf/........._b-9337.html'; data[2]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/flukeekulf/........._b-9337.html'; data[2]['username'] = 'flukeekulf'; data[2]['blog_id'] = '9337'; data[2]['blog_message'] = 'I have a house inside my head, I open the door and find a room full of orbs, where I lock away feelings and contain them.

I just added hate because it's starting to overwhelm me, like blackness everywhere, and I'll put bloodlust in there because it's shiny and pretty.

It also has power and corruption, the others are long gone and I can't remember them.

I think I might add loneliness to the collection. I hate the feeling.'; data[2]['blog_time'] = 'Mon, 07 Dec 2015 20:35:57 -0500'; data[3] = new Array(); data[3]['title'] = '.............'; data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/flukeekulf/............._b-9324.html'; data[3]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/flukeekulf/............._b-9324.html'; data[3]['username'] = 'flukeekulf'; data[3]['blog_id'] = '9324'; data[3]['blog_message'] = 'I'm still lacking vital chemicals that I will acquire someday, that will completely allow me to humanize myself and others. Not that I will ever believe anyone has any real value. My empathy is still lacking in a lot of respects, mainly experience. I've managed to induce and learn quite a few emotions and feel what they are like. Sympathy was the best feeling, better than love to me. But they are momentary feelings mostly.'; data[3]['blog_time'] = 'Sat, 05 Dec 2015 01:22:36 -0500'; data[4] = new Array(); data[4]['title'] = 'Developing'; data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/flukeekulf/developing_b-9321.html'; data[4]['url'] = 'https://www.psychforums.com/blog/flukeekulf/developing_b-9321.html'; data[4]['username'] = 'flukeekulf'; data[4]['blog_id'] = '9321'; data[4]['blog_message'] = 'My empathy now has color.'; data[4]['blog_time'] = 'Fri, 04 Dec 2015 20:16:50 -0500';