I just gotten a few sandwiches from a drive thru. We were on our way home, and john began to dig into his food. He then looked into the bag and started to look sad. This puzzled me and I was just about to question it when I heard him say softly in a sad voice, "where's my toy?" I immediately though of a child wanting a kids meal toy. "What did you say?" I knew what he said but I wanted to see if he knew. His head snapped up then he looked at me puzzled.."I didn't say anything, I've been eating." I let it go from there.
We had to go outa town today. John always loves car rides. He usually spaces out while I drive us. We took and older road that's pretty long and out in the country. Half way there on this road there are huge wind mills and there has to be at least 20 or 30 of them and a few are very close to the road. We admired them on the way there, how they steadily rotate. On the way back john lay back in his seat and stared out the window like he always does. I asked him towards the end of the trip if we had passed the wind mills yet. "No we took a different road." Which we hadn't.
Maybe Poe isn't real but John seems to be loosing more and more time.
All I know is he believes its impossible for us both to be d.I.d.

Great a new toy, haha. Guess I could ramble on here when ever I think I can form actual sentences that make sense to people.
My body feels run down. My dog was sick all night so I was up late. Jay also had an issue with a friend of his. He was anxious all night. I could feel him hurting. I could almost see him. It felt dream like, and foggy. I tried to sleep but I had this funny feeling like someone was touching me. It gave me the chills and it took forever to realize I was only imagining it. It's giving me anxiety just thinking about it. It felt so real.
United States of Tara season (and seeming show) finally is tonight. Gawd I wish I had showtime. I'll have to wait until Artie downloads it. Probably tomorrow. Can't wait. That show is like my life on camera sometimes lol
MTV should make a "True Life I have D.I.D." I'm game. I'll go on that show. But my life is strange. 6 personalities and my husband is transexual. She's the love of my life. She showed me how to see someone for who they are. I just wonder who people see me as given the fact I'm not always here, sometimes its my alters. Does that make me less of a person to only live half the time? And I've always wondered what its like to be alone in your own mind. I think it would scare the hell out of me..for real..