Like many OCD & HOCD sufferers I too was stressed , searched for answers to help me , worried & had some what of anxiety . The thing was , my HOCD problem started when my thoughts intentionally stood on the subject if I was "gay" or not , eventually it turned into something bad , & like many others who suffer from HOCD I had doubts about my sexuality & had tested several times if I was still attracted to girls. Now , on that subject , the only porn I ever would watch was lesbian and just girls on cam , meaning I was only interested in girls when it came to porn, I didn't like the fact of seeing a guys dick anyway. So I tested if I was still hard from girls , and I was. Like most who had suffered from HOCD , I had watched porn and still gotten hard from girls. But what worries people the most is losing the attraction to girls on your nasty experience of HOCD. Losing attraction is normal , & it must of happened because of the intrusive thoughts you have been applied too, & once you train your brain back to the way it usual would think your attraction will return , trust me , in fact your attraction was never left , it's just anxiety from HOCD, I thought I lost attraction to girls in real life until I knew deep down I really wasn't . Also , experiencing HOCD and testing yourself if you'll get hard usually leads to you forcing yourself to get an erection , which ain't that easy , you can't force an attraction , so don't panic that you're gay if you don't get hard, it's just the anxiety. Remember , a bad thought would eventually turn into something worse if you pay too much attention to it & try to fight it. Which brings me to these main points of HOCD :

1. HOCD sufferers who say they were straight & suddenly panicked & thought they were gay are really straight , If you get hard from girls , and get disgusted from the gay thoughts ( usual HOCD symptoms ) then it is obvious you really are straight , a gay person would enjoy the thoughts and not question if they are gay or not , they would not get hard from girls either , & should of realized they were gay long ago. A gay person with HOCD would fear of being straight , not fear of being gay if they already knew they were.

2 . H(OCD) is a trickster , it will get you thinking you're something you're not , the more you pay attention to it the more of a problem it will become, and I know not paying attention to the thoughts can be tough , but read on & you will see how this all connects.

3. Gay people wouldn't have a straight past life , no one can just simply "turn gay" without knowing way back before the thoughts came in that they were attracted to men. Think about it , ever since you started questioning yourself you started to believe more and more that you were gay , & it got stronger , your brain is trying to say you're gay because that was the question of the day , the subject that was on your mind , you are not your brain , you control your thoughts , and your thoughts have been saying you're gay when you really aren't & your sexuality can't just change out of no where , it makes no sense how that would be possible.


4. You are stressing about being gay , one who is gay wouldn't be stressing on old news they have found out years ago. Proof that you are truly straight is that you do fear of becoming gay & have all the proof that you are straight ( common thought from HOCD sufferers ).

5. Most people "check" if they're really gay or not by watching porn and seeing if gay or straight erects them. Thing is , even if you do end up getting erected by straight porn the thoughts will still be there , HOCD will keep telling you that you are gay , when you really aren't, that is why you do not pay attention to "checking" , it is pointless since the thoughts will just keep bouncing back. You will always have proof that you are straight , because in reality you really are , but that is what HOCD is , it will try to trick you into thinking you are gay when you really aren't. So , you shouldn't "check" if you get erected , by doing that it means you are paying attention to the thoughts , which is what you shouldn't be doing if you want them to go away.

6. ( IMPORTANT ) I have read a couple of forums saying that they had helped themselves with this & had said to just accept the thoughts & say that they are gay when they know they aren't . Yes accept the thoughts , but No do not accept that you are gay. Why accept being something you've been trying to avoid ? What you should simply do is let the thoughts run through your head , but just keep reminding yourself that they aren't real , the thoughts are just HOCD & remember your brain can train on forgetting these daily, eventually your mind will get the message that those gay thoughts are all a bunch of crap & aren't real. That is what OCD & HOCD is , thoughts that are not real running through your head.


7. Do not believe an answer saying "latent homosexuality" or what so ever on a question being asked by a person suffering HOCD. Those people really do not know what HOCD is like , a straight person with HOCD will not live an unhealthy life believing they are homosexual, because it is not true , that is why they keep fighting it.

8. (IMPORTANT) Do not fight the gay thoughts , I'm not saying believe that they are true , but just let them be free & expose yourself to them , let them know you really aren't scared because you really are not homosexual & you know it . FIghting the thoughts will get you no where , it is as if the thoughts are a brick wall , & you are trying to break it down with a stick , why try and break it down with a stick when there's a cannon heading the wall's way to break it down ? The cannon referring to your true thoughts , they will be shown when you get the intrusive thoughts out of the way. Just be patient , do not fight the thoughts , in order to forget you must not pay attention to them, & always remember that all the gay thoughts & what not are all false.

Just remember , no homosexual would enjoy or get hard over a hot girl. Remember that "feeling" you get around guys is just the anxiety , it is HOCD , keep reminding yourself whenever you're about to panic. People say "Whenever HOCD tells you that you are gay say "Yeah , I am gay I suck cock " " In order to get the message in your brain saying that the thoughts are powerless is wrong , why would you say you're gay & you suck cock when you really want to avoid those things ? You should really say " Pff? You're supposed to make me panic ? You aren't real , heck even ponies are more real than you " , corny Ik but really , you should always remember that the thoughts are all fake , keep reminding yourself that it's just HOCD , it is meant to make you feel this way , this is why you train your brain back to it's original thinking.

REMEMBER : Don't fight it ! Let the thoughts be , the more you fuel you will add to the HOCD tank. Also remember , letting the thoughts be free does not mean accept you are gay , no , let the thoughts be knowing that it is just HOCD. Train your brain like this & eventually it will all fade away ! Trust me guys , I have been down that road . I also recommend Dr Schwartz "You are not your brain" , as that is were Ik all this & it has helped me & with progression this will be okay & your lives will go back to normal . The attraction will return to normal as it never left. Just be patient , train your brains!

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-ZACKiE