On the last blog post, we mentioned that C. had his avatar rights revoked, and asked that if people were upset at the GIF take down, to please direct all mail to a certain address. We put down Brian Williams' 30 Rockefeller address, which we are not even sure is a real thing. We just ripped it from a gag C. saw on The Daily Show (from Hulu, because we refuse to get cable) a few weeks ago. Because of that and that alone, it might be the real deal, but otherwise, were not 100% sure that the address posted and later edited out was his real office address. It might have been a general address for the whole building, or it might have just been a fake.

We apologize to Mr. Brian Williams for not researching his real address, and we promise that if we attempt to do this "Joke" again, we will try to locate his real house. Again, apologizes for the lack of research. Were not sure HOW we will pull it off, but we are perseverant... is that even a word?

-NicS

I had my first Dissociative experience in a long time. I took my first bath for the year (Last one was in September 2011, I usually just take showers), and was only in there for a good 10 minutes. The second I walked out of the bathroom (fully clothed, you weird people, you...), my brother walked into the room, and I became so incredibly dissociated. The last time I was THAT far gone was Pi Day, 2010. Seriously, its been that long. (I remember so specifically because there was Pie in the math class, and I enjoy food stuffs).

I'm not scared this is becoming a reoccuring thing, but I just figured I should post this as a reminder to myself that this thing happened on this day. I tried Psychtracker for a while, but I just lost interest, when all I really wanted was to just say "I became very woozy today", and remember that to see if there was a pattern for future reference.

So, here it is: I became heavily dissociated for the first time in 2 years today. I've had small spells, we all have, but they pass quickly without issue. This was the first heavy one in a while. So, thats all.

-NicS

P.S.: My avatar got taken down for a bit. I have no idea why, but I honestly could care less. That's C's thing, so if your missing it for whatever reason, please direct all sadness and seething hatred to C. at

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Gracias.

I finally texted Kelsey and asked her to remove me from her phone:

"No drama intended, but please remove me from your address book. We barley talk, and its clear were not going anywhere, ever. I'm finally fine with that."

I felt so free. And then I deleted all the texts she sent me I thought made her look like an idiot or destroyed me emotionally. And now I feel so ######6 good.

-C.Nic

Just a quick thing here: You know, its always the people who think the mentally ill are all crazy (literal) #####& who could snap at any second and ###$ up the post office with a gas powered machine gun they built themselves out of Lego's & superglue on top of a chainsaw engine and shrapnel they found near the recycling center, that tend to use the phrase "Well, everyone is a little bit crazy".

No. No, everyone is not a little bit crazy. Its like saying "Life is unfair to everyone, not just you". Don't those people get it? That by making everyone play by the same rules, life becomes fair to everyone? Its all about perspective, I guess... but those who think life is unfair to everyone is stupid, cause I just proved them wrong. Assholes.

Its the same concept with "Everyone is a little bit crazy". Doesn't that make everyone the same amount of "Sane"? If everyone has the same amount of crazy in them, aren't we all equals in terms of sanity?

They are the assholes who try to cover up their lazy asses with $#%^ like "Well, he started it" or "I didn't read the manual", or even the rarely used "My dog ate the damn thing". They're the ones who need to assign blame to everything but themselves, mostly over the tiniest things no one will remember or even care about, until they make it a ######6 big deal!

What I'm basically trying to say is ###$ these people. Alright? Just ###$ them. Nothing has come up recently to make me want to write this as some angry rant, I've just wanted to say this for a while. The main reason I'm writing this is so I am on record for whatever may come next: If you use the phrase "Everyone is a little bit crazy", you yourself want to be mentally ill, or just straight-up crazy.

No, seriously! Think about it: People LOOOOVE serial killers. People love the mentally ill that are truly insane. People love stereotypes. People love weird $#%^, basically, and most of them, momentarily at one point in their lives, dream about being Ted Bundy or Sarah Palin or even someone like us. Delusional ###$ who kill everything that loves us, from plants (me, sadly...) to entire Presidential Campaigns (you know who.) And when the idea that the mentally ill have an entire set of laws to make sure they are safe and secure, and their actions have less repercussions, they want that life.

And its hard not to see why. Some of the mentally ill get welfare checks and live a life of ease. One of the only 3 movies to get the Oscar "Grand Slam" was "One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest", because people ######6 loved that film. They think that is what mental illness really is. And reality is ALWAYS different from what is shown on TV or in movies. We know what true mental illness has been like.

Thats why every time someone uses that damn phrase, I feel like slapping their ######6 faces until they vomit blood. Or, at least, correct them, using the phrase "Your an idiot, and ###$ you, you dumb $#%^" as much as verbally possible.

In the end, the idiots who think everyone is a little bit crazy don't understand what crazy means. As Michael Swaim once eloquently put it "Crazy is a relative term, to some people skydiving is crazy, to others its perfectly natural". Maybe it really is all about perspective. In which case, I win, undefeated, by a large margin throughout history, because as long as people think the definition of "Crazy" is "Mentally Deranged", and still think "Everyone is a little bit crazy" means "Everyone has a part of their brain that isn't wired right, and that part sometimes helps/hurts them" (or whatever they think it means), then we will still have people who think mental illness is a glamorous freight train hauling loads of money for individuals "lucky" enough to be mentally ill.

If they only knew how stupid that sounds, or at least saw it how we do....

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Anyone follow the new craze sweeping the legislature? This "Stick some wand in a woman and let her see the baby" thing? Or carrying the baby to term even if its stillborn? That whole #######4? What the ###$ is going on?!! Why are we trying to ######6 suppress women rights all of a sudden, and since when has the GOP started playing the "Nuh-uh, he started it" card on ######6 everything?!! "Rush Limbaugh called her a slut!" "Well.... well, Bill Maher called Palin a @@@@@@@! NYAH Nyah NYAH Nyah nyah!"

Can we all just agree were not going to vote for the crazy people anymore? Congress, altogether, is going to be voted out, even the good guys and the veterans serving 30+ years. Its going to HAVE TO BE all new people, and NO ######6 TEA PARTIERS.

Its pretty bad when the guys in charge are crazier than the guys on this forum. We have legitamate mental illnesses, what the hell is their excuse? Is religion that corrupting? If so, I don't want ANY part of it at all.

-C.Nic