I did a whole rant yesterday about the shooting, and I decided not to upload because, really, it was just me typing out my frustrations at how stupid we as a ######6 society are to let something like this happen.

So I've been trolling Craigslist Casual Encounters instead. And its been great.

I'll have my stories next post. But I highly recommend it. The desperation is so rich in this thriving community of perverts that I can't believe more people aren't exploiting it!

-C.Nic

I'm looking into opening a business, because no one wants to hire students. So ###$ em. Anyone got any tips, PM me, anytime, anyplace. You have business advice, just tell me in the comments below or in a PM. If your reading this 10 years from now, send in advice anyway. Anything you can tell me to get my feet on the ground will help.

Were aiming for an advertising firm, because there is a severe lack of that around here. Most ads are just made by idiots with DV cameras, edited with stock music and, really, no talent. We are REALLY good at filming, so we're hoping we can pull this off.

Any and all tips are appreciated, comment below or PM me your advice. I will take anything besides "Yeah, don't do it". I have no other options than joining the army or getting onto welfare, and I refuse to do either. So don't hesitate, send it in. There is no timer on this post, so if 2 weeks from now, you still have advice, send it in. If in 5 years, you have a tip, let me know.

Thanks!
-NicS, C.Nic

I think my Philosophy teacher is intentionally trying to confuse me.

-NicS

There are way too many animalistic tendencies going on right now. A ######6 shooting is happening every week now, and I am losing control of myself sexually.

I am on a jerk-it-3x-a-day-minimum regimen, sometimes sneaking into Albertsons Park to jerk off naked in the stalls at midnight so I can be closer to nature and other animals.

I am ######6 losing my mind, and school started today. Its been over a year since I last had sex with Kelsey, and I am too ######6 afraid to go near another girl for fear of getting my heart broken again. I'm not going through that again. But I need something to help me get rid of my instincts and feelings.

I just got really good with knives. I am trying not to kill something, but I am coming close. There are a lot of stray cats in the neighborhood. I'm hoping I'll decapitate just ######6 one and be done with it. Maybe sedate the sexual appetite for a while? Maybe?

I cannot risk letting myself become a "True Animal". I cannot let myself kill or rape. But its becoming harder and harder. I see these idiots at school with wife beaters covered in food who only talk about what was on Mtv and think
"Maybe the world would be better off without them".

I have said before I have plans to commit school shootings at every school I have attended, so I can be ahead of the curve if someone else actually commits the crime. The access code to the faculty lounge on the 2nd floor seems to have changed, but one teacher typed in "1141", got in easy. The first floor maintenance room is soundproof and right next to the elevator, so no one could hear someone else scream. The roof would be great to push someone off, but its not as satisfying. Plus, there's always a chance I could fall off as well.

Then there's the waves of depression and suicide. Who knew sex brought so much ######6 pain? I can live without it, but at the same time I demand it now. I need it, and I have no idea why. I didn't particularly enjoy the sex with Kelsey, but I did like how it felt. If I could find some kind of Fleshlight-type deal for cheap or some whore who understood my dilemma, maybe I could get rid of the instincts and feelings. But, for right now, writing about it is all I've got. Its the only thing that helps cure it, albeit only temporarily.

I don't want to talk about it, but I ######6 do. I have no one to talk to about my instincts, but no one understands, so it cancels out. I look online for "Animalistic", and everything I find is ######6 lame. Nothing helps me but porn and so-called "Snuff" films. Death and sex. God, I am in love with that combo.

I don't want to get laid through Craigslist ads, I actually want to know the girl I'm ######6. But at the same time, Kelsey completely changed in a second, and everything I knew about her was gone. So maybe I don't want to know what the ######6 @@@@@@@ likes. But I do. But I might not want to. But I really want to know her before we go all the way, or else she might abandon me like Kelsey did. I cannot live through something like the last year again. If I ask a girl out and she does the same $#%^ Kelsey did, I will ######6 kill myself by jumping off the roof at CWI.

-C.Nic, TK

We've started learning sign language.

-NicS

Not that you ######6 care. Also: ###$ Paul Ryan, and that asshole Todd Arkin who said that $#%^ about rape. ######6 conservative asshole. I get pissed when #####& say $#%^ like this because all I think of is poor Zack. But Zack doesn't like being seen as "poor Zack", and we won't have to be there in the first place if #####& like Rep. Todd Arkin would shut the ###$ up.

Also, we watched the episode of Dr. Phil on DID, or as they kept saying, "Multiple Personality Disorder". WE ######6 UPGRADED THE TERM. Do some research, you fat ###$. Even the description on our guide said "Dr. Phil talks to a woman with Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD)." THEY CEMENTED THE OLD TERM SO ######6 MUCH THEY USED PARENTHESES. PARENTHESES!!!

Also, I have seen the "Dr. Phil" thread on the forum, and I know that the woman who was on the show has posted here. (http://www.psychforums.com/dissociative-identity/topic89501.html?hilit=Dr.%20Phil), but all I would want to say to her is you could not be any less convincing. Its not her fault, though. The entire show, I did not see a trigger or switch, just ASAP, one alter to the next. Granted, we can do that too, but there is a twitch or something every time. I did not see a twitch or anything, leading me to think that the editing on this was one of the worst I have seen in daytime since "The Talk" episode 207, Production #8008135. Now, granted, I work from 9 till 4:45 (except Wednesday and Monday), so I don't see a lot of daytime TV. I make exceptions, like game shows in the early morning or when the Aurora theater shooting happened? I laughed my ######6 ass off watching the Today show barley scrape together anything and call it news, then stall it out for 4 hours and loop the same grainy cell phone footage and picture of James Holmes 20 times after each commercial break finished. And from that I can deduce that daytime editors can let things slip.

But "The Price is Right" and "Lets Make a Deal" has some fantastic editing, and I know for a fact that filming these shows can take a ######6 while. They cut 2 hours down to 44 minutes, and its seamless. You'd never ######6 know that it was edited. That's what good editing is: knowing that $#%^ wasn't cut out, so that a story can form, when, in fact, $#%^ was cut out. You don't know it, though, because the $#%^ was cut out, and now all that's left is the good, quality stuff. With the theater shooting, it was playing the same $#%^ over and over again, cutting from Lauer to some poor #####& from the local NBC news affiliate trying to explain what an "apartment" is, to 2 minutes of a live feed of the ice rink at 30 Rock with all the flags waving but no sound (I wish I was ######6 kidding...) to insta-breaks, where they cut off whoever is ######6 talking to sell you Gold Bond, mid-sentence. That's #######5 editing, and when something like the theater shooting is happening, you need to keep it respectful. And by cutting from "12 confirmed dead, including 2 children" to "We consulted 3K doctors to try 5-Hour Energy" within a 10 second time frame, you are ######6 it up.

Same applies to Dr. Phil. Anyone with mental illness knows what tragedy is like. Would you want a fat ###$ to sit there in a suit 3x too small for his fat ass to condescend you because something happened in your past that you cannot remember, and now you have a mental illness you did not even want? I would swing a 2x4 at his head and go all Dnepropetrovsk Maniacs on his fat ass. I would even be open to TK killing him.

My point here is that when a show bills itself as "The #1 talkshow in daytime", that's a pretty big ######6 deal. Daytime, while not as big a market as Primetime or Late Night, is still a big ######6 market, hitting millions of homes on an hourly basis. You think, with viewership somewhere between 1-3 million viewers (http://tvbythenumbers.zap2it.com/2012/08/07/syndicated-tv-ratings-big-bang-theory-and-judge-judy-tie-for-number-one-in-household-ratings-big-bang-on-top-in-total-viewers/144014/),...

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