but today I'm going to change it up a bit.

I had some bad dreams about the xbf and woke up sad, angry and lonely. I've been focussing mostly on my accommodation situation and was wondering when some grief and loneliness would bubble up. You can't love someone, be hurt by them to the point you need to leave for your health and wellbeing, without some emotion; so I knew it would come eventually. I've distracted myself with the books that I bought through my travels through Europe. I find European history so interesting. So much of our culture in (white) Australia is explained after only branching off a mere 200 years ago. That said I also love indigenous Australian history. I believe aborigine culture is one of the most profound cultures the world has ever seen. Anyway I digress...

The boring individual experience of heartbreak, that doesn't count for anything, but is a human emotion that needs to be felt, validated, accepted and moved through. I think I will try to focus on my body sensations for the day, rather than attempting to intellectualise things. I will try to "lose the story and feel the feelings", if that makes sense.

Thanks for reading.

LW,
Proud of you!! Feeling the feelings is a brave step and not an easy thing to do because avoiding the ache and ick of the feelings is sometimes easier then sitting and gutting it out. My thoughts are with you and hopefully you'll get through the wave to the other side soon.

Hugs,
K