Hola all!
Well, today seems calmer. Got quite a bit of schoolwork done yesterday, vented to a couple of people, then decided that I needed to go ahead and take the Seroquel and turn the brain off for some much needed sleep. Woke today at 11am (MUCH later than my usual 5am) but needed the chemical knock out to pull the plug on the brain.

So, while the same mountain of "to do" items are in front of me, today's perspective is more balanced. Don't know why I go through the same drill every month with the ol' hormones, but I do. Get into hormone-induced crankiness, then after about 24 hours of it, I realize it's the hormones again, so I say "oh, ok" and move on. Lots of progress, as I now am able to recognize that this happens as opposed to riding the rollercoaster, yelling my head off till the ride stops. Just wish that I'd recognize that I've sat down in the seat of the ride when the safety bar gets pulled down instead of after the first hill. Ah, well, baby steps

Today I think I'll take a little slow... just get up and moving (right now is my usual morning java and internet perusal) and hit the books. This isn't the week for making any of the life decisions I'm pondering; not the week for looking at the calendar at all the "must do" items. I think today is just about focusing on today and what I can do right this very second. Sometimes I wonder if I don't make life more complicated than it really needs to be. Foresight is great, but I have to remember to not dwell on the future and tell myself "Koshka, you can only control what you do right now, and spazzing about later is not helping you right now."

Here and now.

I must remember that...

Action occurs in the present tense; the past is unchangeable and the future is not yet touchable; I can "do" in the here and now.

So off to "do" I go!

Have a great day, all

-K