As I've mentioned before my mother was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder after she had what she called a hypomanic episode. According to my step dad the police have told him that there was three minors involved. I understand that a manic person can be hypersexual, but why couldn't my mother have just had sex with adults. She blames the... child molestation (for lack of a better word) that's she's committed on the fact that she was manic (she wasn't diagnosed with bipolar disorder while she was cheating, only after) which I will concede that her hypersexual behavior was a result of mania, but I REFUSE to accept that she had to do it with kids in there mid to early teens. I'm not bipolar but couldn't she of just found some random adult could can mania fog your morals?

I was looking at the *mod edit* website to find some info on my mom and I found out that her bail is over *mod edit*. The worst thing is I found her mugshot and I could feel the sting of tears start forming in my eyes, it's so weird to think that my mom is in jail I told her that I'd visit her, my names put down as a visitor. It's hard, she's the one that's gotten me into gardening and I've always had a good relationship with her and to think that she did what she did and the fact that I can't see her all the time now, saddens me. It's like I've lost her but I haven't really.

This all happened a few weeks ago. I took my cats with me and left my parents a note telling them where I went and that I'm not angry with them. Initially it was hard but I've gotten over it somewhat and I'm focusing on finishing high-school currently. I feel somewhat bad for leaving my sister and I was afraid to go to my mom's on mother's day. All of this is probably pretty hard on both of them and I left them both during unstable times when they probably need me the most. Oh well what's done is done. Time to keep studying more discrete mathematics lol

I feel so envious of people who are straight and bisexuals who have a preference towards the opposite gender. It makes me want to cry I want that back. It's not a good mindset to have but I view homosexuality as the enemy which I must never act on, I have a sense of security feeling like $#%^ that without it I don't know what I'd do

Maybe it's me being a teenager but I get this feeling that "your a kid we just want what's best for you" eventually turns into "your young trust us" and eventually when your in your mid to late twenties and thirties to "where older trust what where saying". I feel like there's no end to parents and we oder adults within a family saying things like that, the problem is is that these statements aren't wrong but I feel like most people say it in a condescending way, like I can't make my own decisions, they don't provide any evidence as to why what there saying is better I should just trust them because there an adult. I also get this feeling with my mom and stepdad that they think I'm obligated to live with them into I can be self-sufficient because they "raised me 99% of the time" apparently I'm to stupid to realize this because I didn't know this until yesterday. They think I'm going to be a failure if I go and live with my dad. They don't trust that I'm going to make smart decisions without them and it angers me, it sounds very condescending.