perhaps the same conclusion as before: a chance to get closer to something meaningful. it is in subjugation and deference that peace is found. worship. faith. accepting our smallness. serving others. not in chasing material things or power. status. accomplishment. it is in learning to humble oneself before God, to be thankful for what we have, content with even less.

it walks a particularly fine line, but i always thought the best resolution of our differences would be to meet again, for the first time, and each admit that the other had driven us closer to God. mutual destruction lead to mutual rebirth. it is nothing more than an image, teetering precariously on the edge of glory-seeking, but it teeters there nonetheless.

my prayer is that, regardless of what happens, regardless of the path we head down, with his blessing, and regardless of the unforeseen paths beyond, he can find the same conclusion in times of even the worst desperation and despair.