S,

Firstly, I'm really sick of helping you, every minute I can, and putting my trust in you all the time, and thinking that you care, and now... being shown that you don't.
I was in the hospital all day yesterday. My first day being seventeen years old, and I spent it in the hospital, being hooked up to an IV, with tubes everywhere because I had overdosed on Acetaminophen in an attempt to kill myself. And the only thing you can do is complain about your Aunt? I understand, that she's rough, I understand that she's emotionally hurting you. But that doesn't mean that you should ignore the people you so-called, "care about" and put your own self before them at all. I mean, like I said, don't get me wrong, I know you're in a bad situation, I know that you're having a hard time. I'm just very disappointed that I trusted you, and you only wrote me because you were curious. Not because you actually cared.

It's selfish, if you ask me. I'm sorry to be so harsh, and attacking you, but seriously, I feel so betrayed and hurt. My daughter's father r*ped me on my birthday, and I tried to pretend everything was okay, because I knew it was my fault this time. This time, it was DEFINITELY my fault. I WANTED it. At first, I wanted to make love to him, I really did... but midway through, I started changing my mind, and things just went bad. Suicide was the perfect answer. And I'm very, very disappointed that you haven't even blinked an eye about it. You really don't care if I managed to kill myself, do you? You wouldn't care if I died? You're just so wrapped around your own self that you can't see when a friend... er, ex-friend now, is reaching out to you, and really trying to get help from you, as well as help you. I feel like I've been taken advantage of, that when you need help, when you need an ego stroke, I gave it to you, no matter how much it triggered me, or how much I didn't want to help, I helped anyway.

I don't know what else to say. My head hurts, and I don't regret the suicide attempt at all. I just regret that I failed. I regret that I punked out, and I regret that I ever even got so attached to you that I thought you cared about me.

Sounds like someone not worth your time. Keep fighting. <3

Thank you. <3