So this has nothing to do specifically with anxiety or depression, but it is a huge contributing factor, and that is chronic pain. Last year after a car wreck, it destroyed my back and I found out I have degenerative disc disease. EVERYDAY I am in constant pain and I am being treated for it to the best of my doctors capabilities. Yet for the past couple of weeks my pain has been UNBEARABLE! to the point it interrupts daily life. Even gentle hugs, or playful little love taps hurt, and felt like I was in a vice or being punched in the face. Well my doctor ran some test and my RA (Rheumatoid Arthritis) marker came back off the charts. I'm super discouraged, I keep getting hit with these diagnoses, and just want some good news for once.

So guys as the title reads, Im OVER Geodon, unfortunetly the side effect of restlessness was just too much for me to handle. I would lay in the bed and have the WORST restless legs ever! I feel like a one time dose of Geodon would work fine for me, but as a maintance med it just wasn't a fit So back to good ole Cymbalta, I was starting to develop a tolerance, but since I was off it for a little while that seems to have subsided. I find Cymbalta to be very helpful for me because not only does it help with my depression/anxiety, but also with chronic pain. So, yes, Im back to square one but once again I have to trust in the process.

Hello guys, sorry for my absence but between work and health problems it can be hard to keep up with everything Anyway, Ive been taking Geodon for some time now and honestly I don't know how much longer I can take it (literally and figuratively). Its made it to were I practically have to force my self to get some sleep, with out my trazadone I'm SOL. I honestly wonder if meds are even right for me? Is it me? Am I just so messed up that I cant find a medicine to fix me? I know none of those statements are true and a lot of mental health meds are trial and error, but I've had a lot of errors. In fact the only medicine to come out of all of this trial and error as triumphant is Rexulti, brilliant depression med btw. Rexulti made my depression less and really helped me out of the slump, but when it comes to OCD and Bipolar disorder I haven't found a med yet that truly lessens anything, instead I just get hit with a slew of side effects.

Hello guys! if you've wondered why I haven't posted in a while? Well my blood sugar has been in the low 50s/ high 40s for the past couple of days. I cant not take any meds because I still get consistent highs as well. Where does anxiety fit in? Well, I have a freestyle libre, which is a glucose monitor that is inserted into your arm and can communicate with your phone/meter. I have been OBSESSED with checking it, yes I should check it often but I do it too much. I'm constantly thinking "Is it too low?'' "Is too high". I honestly trigger my OCD and anxiety so much its crazy! I'm at a loss for ways to help the compulsion calm down. I also tried to go back to school online but got so overwhelmed and nervous I dropped out the first day, my nerves got the better of me. Im super embarrassed over this, but luckily my husband Is super supportive and encouraged me to do what I wanted. So I decided to work on myself the rest of the year before I take on anything else. Maybe next semester.

I never though the book that I read in 10th grade would be relevant to my life today, but today I was labeled with a scarlett letter. Today I had to go to the hospital, (Im okay, I just hurt my arm at work and have a HX of blood clots), once the nurse pawed through my chart and seen I had came in once for mental health problems that was it. Boom. She talked to me differently, treated me differently and told me "Maybe its just anxiety". Its like I had a sign above my head that read "MENTAL ILLNESS", I see now why many of us don't speak out and seek help medically for this very reason! To her, since I didn't have a blood clot this time (thank God), the pain and feeling that was taking my breath away was all in my head. "Maybe its just anxiety". I find that sentence so disgusting, I come in with a literal complaint and the nurse, whose suppose to have compassion, tells me its all in my head and basically scolded me about getting a CT scan done, and coming in at all. My husband says she wasn't scolding me but it damn sure felt like it. Lucky for me the PA was great and she and I discussed further and found I hurt my arm at work, nothing major, just some rest, heat/Ice and muscle relaxers. This is why people with mental illness don't reach out, nurses like that are the cause. No one like being branded with a Scarlett letter.