I'm lonely. So lonely. I feel like a little girl right now. I'm so confused. I wish it would all become clear. I need help. I need someone or something. A hug. Some guidance?
I can feel myself going Into one of my negative spirals. I don't want to. I can't stop it.
It's so frustrating. I can't help it. I wana say 'I hate myself' but the words are just annoying to me.
Agrarrggggggg. I'm just going around in ######6 circles. No one is gunna help are they. No ones ######6 coming to my rescue. I've just gota harden up.
How did I get into this ######6 crazy, messed up life. Everything is all over the place. One minute I'm up, next I'm down. One minute I wanna take over the world, the next I am just feeling so depressed and like I'm not in reality. Like the world isn't real again. This is all just my dream. I just want to wake up!! For ###$ sake. Please let me wake up and stay awake.
I don't want this $#%^ anymore, round and round and round and round, year after ######6 year!
why doesn't God listen to me? What am I doing wrong? Why am I given this ######6 never ending crazy cycle of $#%^. What the ###$ is the point. Please help.
I can't take anymore. I CAN NOT TAKE ANYMORE.
Help me.

Gentle hugs to you, if wanted.

It seems like the negative spirals are familiar ground, in a way. How have you handled them in the past?

Thank you I really need them. I don't know how I handle everything really. My moods are swinging so bad lately and very rapidly. One minute I'm great, next minute I'm crashing. I just feel I'm really losing the plot. And I am completely alone. I am completely unsupported.
And I just don't know how to handle anything at all. i just don't know.
And I hate myself for it. And I feel like No one cares, and that in bothering everyone. I feel like I bothered people on this forum just by posting that blog, I feel like I'm bothering you and you replied just cause you felt you had to. Sorry. I hope you don't think I don't appreciate it. I'm just explaining how I feel.
When I last spoke to my doctor I felt like I was bothering her too. As she's the only one I can see at the moment if I have any problems. But I don't Wana bother her. I think I will just ring and ask them to prescribe me some meds. Thank you for replying.

Oh goodness. No, you aren't bothering anyone by being honest here. The forum would cease to exist. If people didn't share what was important. It would become a vacuous little echo chamber of nicey nice. And then implode. Please don't contribute to that. Posting is good. Openness is good.

Likewise. And stating the obvious, sorry. Your doctor is there to help. If no one made appointments with her. She'd probably need to start posting here in the Self Esteem forum.


I hope I don't offend by this. I don't mean to but please tell me if I'm out of line. You're feeling totally unsupported. Which is horrible. But you also feel that you're bothering people if you seek support. What would you like to change to make the two sides of the equation balance more healthily for you?