I'm so ******* lonely. The people who love me are near, but somehow that doesn't help right now. I don't feel like talking to my friends about it, what does that say?
/that you don't trust them/?
Why don't I trust my friends? It hurts in my chest and in my throat; right in the middle. Something heavy. It aches and I'm scared of it.
I feel like reaching out to strangers online but I'm scared because that hasn't ended well in the past. Why do I trust strangers and not even my own family? Because there's less to lose? Or because I know they know my pain?